I know the answer is probably yes.
Simple facts. My BPDw wants a divorce. She has been having an affair, her second affair actually, this poor sap was plan B. She has learned a lot since she left her past husband#1 being to always have a spare.
Around early in the year she started getting frantic about selling the house immediately. We had originally planned to stay at home until our son was at least 3. She was also getting fairly angry with me at all times.
I recently fou d out that my replacement has been at the least bit dating at the most screwing yet another woman also married with kids who also looks like a borderline. I know thst my wife knows about her and her finding out coincides with her frantic activity.
Noe this weekend my wife has done a 90, not yet 180. She wants to keep the original agreement and is far less combative, even nice ugh. I know that she is in therapy and I like the direction of her new therapy. Mindfulness based, therapy has DBT training. I saw the stuff she was working on and at the very least it will combat some of her narcissism.
So the question is of course is my wifes new mood and change of mind her first step in recycling me. I cannot imagine her tolerating a cheat who said explicitly to the other girl that he was thinking of leaving my wife. I also dont see her falling for an 'I broke up with her' story since that is what he told his wife about her.
I think she is trying to put me back on the hook.
DBT doesn't work overnight unfortunately.
In answer to your question - Yes.
The language you are using is concerning - it sounds as though you are willing to be recycled. Am I wrong?
I hope you have enough compassion for yourself not to allow that to happen.
You and your son deserve so much better.