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UtterlyLost

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« on: June 04, 2025, 02:17:58 PM »

Hello. I am really struggling, both mentally and in terms of what to do.

The break up was initiated by my partner. Due to a criticism I raised. I criticized something that bothered me and now it is talk about splitting apart. Ofc things happen between those points.

From my understanding. I am supposed to show that I am there, yet also give distance (if wanted). Of which I have done. This has gone.. poorly. My partner started bringing up that I want someone who looks better, who is smarter etc. That I clearly don't find my partner attractive. (this things has nothing to do with what I criticized).

No matter what I do it seems to get worse. When I say I am here and try not to engage, my partner worries. If I engage, it goes very poorly.

The break up seems off, as we are still in contact. All the places my partner could contact me is still there.
Yet things are done to prove my partner is serious. Owed money being transferred. Was told today break up happens because my partner can't handle this situation.

I do not know what to do. It seems my partner wants me to talk, but when I do, things go worse. When I don't talk things also happen. I feel so lost.

I do not want this to end, in the slightest, however I also want things to be better and to minimize the chance of this happening again (if it isn't actually over).

I am hurt, I am stressed, I am sleep deprived and I just want to talk to my partner Frustrated/Unfortunate (click to insert in post)

I am sorry for my bad wording and spelling-mistakes. The lack of sleep is affecting me.
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UtterlyLost

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« Reply #1 on: June 04, 2025, 02:44:10 PM »

I am sorry. I see now I cannot edit the post, so I hope double-posting is not against the rules.

I chose to be quite... Vague in my post, as my questions have been spotted by my partner before and it did NOT go well .

What I really want to know is what I should do in this situation. I know my partner hates this situation, that my partner feels insufficient, that my partner just wants to feel safe (I want that too). I know that this this may be happening so I won't break up first (wasn't planning to, at all), or as some sort of test my partner isn't aware of, to check my reaction to this happening.  I want to do what is best going forward. I have dealt with splits well-enough previously, however there has never been a break-up split and I am terrified. I knew what I was getting into when I got together with my partner, however I am not always sure what is the best choice for my partner, me or us in a given situation.
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kells76
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« Reply #2 on: June 04, 2025, 03:28:37 PM »

Hi UtterlyLost and Welcome

You're in an excruciating situation... of course it's overwhelming, hard to sleep, hard to focus. Glad you found us and reached out for some support. (and posting twice in a row is fine, no worries!)

The break up was initiated by my partner. Due to a criticism I raised. I criticized something that bothered me and now it is talk about splitting apart. Ofc things happen between those points.

What was the criticism? Was there a fight/conflict before that? After the criticism?

Have the two of you had makeup/breakup cycles (or just threats) before?

How long have you been together?

What I really want to know is what I should do in this situation. I know my partner hates this situation, that my partner feels insufficient, that my partner just wants to feel safe (I want that too). I know that this this may be happening so I won't break up first (wasn't planning to, at all), or as some sort of test my partner isn't aware of, to check my reaction to this happening.  I want to do what is best going forward. I have dealt with splits well-enough previously, however there has never been a break-up split and I am terrified. I knew what I was getting into when I got together with my partner, however I am not always sure what is the best choice for my partner, me or us in a given situation.

Many pwBPD struggle with all three of the following:

-high emotional sensitivity (something that wouldn't really bother a person without BPD, can be very painful to a pwBPD)
-high emotional reactivity (a person without BPD might respond to an emotionally painful situation at a 5/10 level -- being upset, wanting to talk about it, raised voice -- but a pwBPD might react to an emotionally painful situation at a 10/10 level -- screaming, suicide threats, breakups, violence)
-long return to emotional baseline (a person without BPD might only need 30 minutes to re-regulate after an argument; a pwBPD might need hours, days, or weeks to return to an emotional baseline and regulate)

Any person, with or without BPD, can have any of those traits. For example, I'm pretty emotionally sensitive, and I have a long return to emotional baseline, but I'm generally not externally emotionally reactive. It's more that if BPD is in play, it's very likely that your loved one will struggle with all three tendencies -- and that is really important information for you to have, especially if you are negotiating a breakup situation.

I'm curious -- if you think back, did/does your partner have a typical "return to baseline" timeline? I.e., would seem to re-regulate after an hour, a day, a week, a month...?

Did your partner make any requests (or, sigh, demands) at the breakup -- anything like "Don't talk to me!" or "Don't text me!" or "Give me space!" ?

...

These are not easy situations to be in, at all. And, because the two of you didn't get here overnight -- it's likely been some time of patterns developing -- this won't be fixed overnight, either. So it'll be important to find ways to manage your own anxieties and fears, because the situation won't be instantly resolved, and you will be carrying some uncomfortable emotions for a bit.

Besides posting here, what kinds of resources and support do you have in your life? Family that understands? Good friends? A therapist?

Fill us in some more, whenever you have the time;

kells76
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UtterlyLost

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« Reply #3 on: June 04, 2025, 04:09:40 PM »

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Hi UtterlyLost and Welcome
Thank you so much  Smiling (click to insert in post)

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You're in an excruciating situation... of course it's overwhelming, hard to sleep, hard to focus. Glad you found us and reached out for some support. (and posting twice in a row is fine, no worries!)
Okay, good, thank you!

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What was the criticism? Was there a fight/conflict before that? After the criticism?


I will try to make it short, to not write a book  Smiling (click to insert in post) Well Early in the relationship, my partner asked what I looked for in a partner. I answered what most would, personality, communication, humor, interests, then lastly I said and ofc I have to be attracted to them. The response was I didn't know you were superficial. Since then a lot of jabs has appeared. You like this since you are superficial. (said as a joke, but there clearly is some disgust in there.)

-Forward to what happened. Everything was good before this! My partner said I wish my ex looked as good as that to a picture a friend was dating. I said, isn't that superficial as per your definition? (genius move I know). My partner did not see how that makes them superficial in the slightest. That annoyed me.. So I doubled down and asked probing questions, my partner started to use what i viewed as manipulative tactics to make it sound like they are not superficial at all, this annoyed me, I said that, that what you just said is manipulative (can't remember what) and then all h*ll broke loose.  This is the first time I have done something like this, pointing out contradictions and said something seemed manipulative. Since it has been distance (talking maybe half an hour per day, since sunday), hard splitting and 2-3 mentions of the relationship needing to end.

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Have the two of you had makeup/breakup cycles (or just threats) before?
Well it happened before  we even got together. That we couldn't be together due to the distance. Never a break up, no. Not even threats.


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How long have you been together?

Since late February

Many pwBPD struggle with all three of the following:

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I'm curious -- if you think back, did/does your partner have a typical "return to baseline" timeline? I.e., would seem to re-regulate after an hour, a day, a week, a month...?

Pretty much 24hrs at the longest, normally maybe over night or 6hrs. This has now gone on for 3-4 days.

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Did your partner make any requests (or, sigh, demands) at the breakup -- anything like "Don't talk to me!" or "Don't text me!" or "Give me space!" ?

Nothing like that no. Seemed my partner wanted me to talk when I didn't. Only demand was me sending her stuff that is at my place, it has been mentioned 3 times now. And I said I will send it every time.
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These are not easy situations to be in, at all. And, because the two of you didn't get here overnight -- it's likely been some time of patterns developing -- this won't be fixed overnight, either. So it'll be important to find ways to manage your own anxieties and fears, because the situation won't be instantly resolved, and you will be carrying some uncomfortable emotions for a bit.
Yeah I know. I know for a fact that I need to deal with this better. I am dealing with it pretty poorly atm. just when I got more used to normal splitting, I make this happen. (I know I shouldn't put this on me, but man...)
 
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Besides posting here, what kinds of resources and support do you have in your life? Family that understands? Good friends? A therapist?

I have good friends! I cannot talk to my family about this and I will try to get a hold of a psychologist.

Fill us in some more, whenever you have the time;

kells76
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« Reply #4 on: June 06, 2025, 07:41:55 AM »

Hi Utterly Lost and welcome!
I'm new here, too, and want you to know you're in a safe place where you can feel supported and heard!  Way to go! (click to insert in post)

Just to reiterate what Kells mentioned, "It'll be important to find ways to manage your own anxieties and fears, because the situation won't be instantly resolved, and you will be carrying some uncomfortable emotions for a bit." Isn't that a perfect picture of so much of life? We're "carrying uncomfortable emotions" and trying to find healthier ways to manage. What does alleviate pain for you? What things bring you joy (or have been able to lift you up in the past)?

I have been exactly where you were when you pushed for your partner to notice their own superficiality (especially in light of the fact that they criticize you for THE SAME THING). I don't know that you should really accuse yourself of "making" this happen; ultimately, the way your partner is responding is up to them, not you. We don't really "make" these things happen, do we?
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