Update on my situation - BPD girlfriend splitting

[LoneMaine]

I posted a week ago about my situation
I've been dating my girlfriend for over 2 years, in which I have put enormous efforts to stay afloat.
When we met, she struggled very hard but I was always happy to give my time, energy, love and money to always cheer her up. Nowadays, she is in a far better spot than she used to be years ago. I don't think I could put into words how much I put into this relationship not just because I felt like I had to, but because I had never loved anyone like this.

I was always insecure and untrusting, I broke her trust and I hurt her a lot. I went through her messages and called her out on something that most likely was a joke taken out of context.
I have always demanded too much from her, even though I knew she still struggled from BPD. She told me she always felt like she always did wrong in my eyes.

A few days before she broke up with me, she told me she wasn't feeling happy with how I was treating her, but she always refused to tell me, telling me it was annoying to do so, but I always wanted to know.
Even in our last month, she always said how much she loved me and how she didn't know what she would do without me. I offered a break but she didn't want to, she was too attached to me. We would talk about our future plans.

When that day came, she told me she didn't love me anymore, that breaking her trust made me hate me and that she wasn't looking to get back together ever again.
Just a few weeks after that, she got a new partner, a girlfriend.
She always told me how she felt a void in her life and I always noticed how she always tried to fill it with merch, new clothes, new collectibles and whatnot.

It's been really hard on me because she moved on so quickly.
She said she wanted to stay friends but she's still very distant.
I don't know what to think at the moment. That maybe she's just trying to fill that void and just "replaced" me, or that her own feeling are betraying her.

I want to point out also that she's done things to me that also hurt me, things she said and did, but I never grew hatred towards her in my heart.

I encourage you to make questions if you want to get a better understanding on everything that happened.

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