Married to BP for 33 Years and I Am Feeling Helpless and Alone

[Serenity62]

I am at a loss of where to go from here.  I have been married for 33 years to my BP husband and am tired of walking on eggshells.  I never know when he is going to "snap" and start yelling, cursing, slamming doors and blaming me for whatever happens.  My three children are adults and I only have one at home.  I am panicking because sometimes I feel I should leave but I have nowhere to go.  When he is feeling good, I feel guilty that I ever thought of leaving him. 

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[dealingwithit]

When he starts the behavior, are you able to leave the home?

[Yellowbee]

I am in the same spot only I am foolish to put up with him for 41 years! We shall get help and move up in our lives!
YellowBee