Winding down to the end

[AustenJ]

2 days until summer break begins, and 3 blissful months of NC with my diagnosed xBPDgf whom I teach with on a small staff at a middle school. She is in a "serious" relationship with my replacement, and they are leaving for Italy where she is expecting an engagement ring. But she has a full court press on to keep me as her BFF/Plan B/orbiter/triangulator. She is still attached and wants to keep me over the summer, even though she is now with "the One" she sees herself being with because he is different than all she has dated.

I have blocked her number, and she is blocked on all social media... .but I work with her everyday, making NC difficult. She has been stopping by my classroom, and semi-stalking me at school. She is her usual flirtatious overly friendly self... .even putting pics of herself in a bikini in my mail box. She wants to meet me in a secluded park to talk about us. But she will have to tell my replacement as she is "in" love with him, but only "loves" me as a friend. We had an 8th grade promotion ceremony the other evening, and she showed up dressed like a hooker--super short dress and very high heels. She is a beautiful 27-year-old, but she was dressed way over the top. I was presenting so I sat on stage as the teachers who were not presenting sat in the first row. Of course, she sat directly across from me, seductively crossing and uncrossing her sexy long legs in a very exaggerated way. After the ceremony I had to leave instead of staying to mingle with parents... .A small price to pay to escape her toxicity.

It didn't bother me as much as I thought it would... .as the fog lifts I see her for who she really is, who she can not help but be. I told her that I would never ever be that guy that fills that void for her between failed relationships. She has lost a lot by discarding me, but as always it's her choice. She's been with dozens of guys before, me and she will be with dozens of guys after me. Her current relationship will crash and burn as well, but I will not be there to fill her void (yes, pun intended).