6 or 7 years since the break up

[SlyQQ]

Havn't been on the boards for a while. today is not good for me, and I can relate, I know just about everything about BPD and it was 6 or 7 years since the break up,I try not to count, none of it does any good.

[Skip]

Hi SlyQQ. It has been a while.

What is going on that has you down?

[SlyQQ]

Hi Skip, how are you going?

Juggling things and waiting for something to drop. It's always tricky, especially when a sliver of doubt crops up but it is amazing how everything seems to go by the play book.

 Just wishing i could read a book, and it's starting to get to me. 

[snowmonkey]

Hi SlyQQ,

I'm sorry to hear that after all these years you are still affected by what transpired so long ago. For myself it has been 18 months although during that time there has been some periodic contact.

I'm wondering how many of us are affected by PTSD or perhaps what has been described as complex PTSD.

It is very sad to imagine myself and many of you guys/girls out there spending the remainder of our lives feeling confined and defined by some past events which we didn't understand at the time and had little control over.

I wish you all the best my friend.

[SlyQQ]

Thanks for the words of encouragement snowy. I still have a deal of contact due to the kids, in fact i ended up rasing
the family including a step daughter who is also BPD.

They've both taken there best shot at me, but realize i am the only one keeping them together , which i do for the rest of the family. I atually get it, eg though few people will mention it the worst thing for someone with BPD is to get into a relationship.

Its cut me deep though, used to read a lot, but yes ptsd and wound tight as a drum.

[Turkish]

What do you think is going to drop?

[SlyQQ]

Hi Turkish hows things, If i knew what life would be much easier,

Ex has moved interstate (met up new partner straight after getting out hospital,  5 weeks later was going to marry him, three more weeks on breaking up again because he was abusive, ( you know the score ))

Guess i convinced her she should give it a shot, Stepdaughter (also BPD )  again almost melted down due to the shenanigans ( but stayed out of hospital ) list goes on an on so many things can go wrong, it's only a matter of time really, so i am battening down the hatches.

[Turkish]

You have the kids,  right? Her mom moving on may seem like (is) abandonment to SD.

[SlyQQ]

I have always had sd2, my son went to live with his mom periodically for a couple of years, mostly on, an Sd1 moved in with my son and her mom about 12 months back, she had minor meltdown went into hospital, met new guy and now all kids are back with me. ( it was always going to happen, i hope with my support though they got some time with there mum)