Saw exBPD twice within 2 weeks after 2 months NC

[How to communicate after a contentious divorce...]

I have been having anxiety attacks around 4pm everyday. I am so confused. I feel lost. During those anxiety attacks I feel an overwhelming sense that I want her back. I have been reading so many books about BPD. When I was with her I didnt know she had BPD. I feel guilty that maybe I could have talked to her differently.

I have seen her twice now after 2 months of NC. The first time she texted me for 30 minutes at around 2 am. The second time I ignored her. She stared at me... .then left. I dont understand why I have been having these anxiety episodes. I have never experienced anything like this.

[AZbpd18]

I have been having anxiety attacks around 4pm everyday. I am so confused. I feel lost. During those anxiety attacks I feel an overwhelming sense that I want her back. I have been reading so many books about BPD. When I was with her I didnt know she had BPD. I feel guilty that maybe I could have talked to her differently.

I have seen her twice now after 2 months of NC. The first time she texted me for 30 minutes at around 2 am. The second time I ignored her. She stared at me... .then left. I dont understand why I have been having these anxiety episodes. I have never experienced anything like this.

[Harley Quinn]

 

Hi AZBPD18.  I'm not familiar with your story, so forgive me if I ask for details that you've covered previously.  :)o you think you are suffering the effects of trauma from either the r/s or the breakup?  Recognising anxiety allows us to take some corrective action.  I was having pretty severe PTSD effects from very disturbing events in my r/s and found that some prescribed medications have a reducing effect on the anxiety that I feel.  How long have you been having these attacks for now?  It may be an idea to speak to a doctor for advice if you are struggling with these in an ongoing way.  We also have a workshop here on How to cope with panic attacks, which I hope you find helpful.

Can you identify what the 4pm trigger might relate to?  :)id something happen at this time specifically?  Do you feel there is a connection to the guilt you are feeling?

Where did you see your ex?  This can be very difficult.  How did you feel when this happened?

Love and light x  

[Mutt]

Hi AZBPD18,



I suggest to read the workshop that   Harley Quinn gave to you. If it’s any consolation I have an anxiety disorder I’m familiar with the feeling. Anxiety is normal it’s the body’s way of notifying you of potential danger it’s problematic when it goes off when there really isn’t a threat. I suggest talking to an MD or GP about anxiety. You’re not alone.