Welcome, Penelope222!

I just want to pop in to welcome you to the discussion boards. I'm sorry for what brought you here, but I'm glad you're with us. We help and support each other here, so that's what you should expect.
I lurked here for a while before feeling compelled to become a member, and I'm so glad that I have! It sounds like you are having an especially difficult time right now, but I hope that you will stick around and receive the support that you need.
Thank you for sharing what you have thus far:
I'm a wreck.
Can you give us a backstory, so we will know what exactly you're dealing with that makes you feel this way? Please let us know how best to support you.
If you look up to the left of your screen under our logo you'll see these words: "
Facing Emotionally Intense Relationships." From what you've shared thus far, I would think that your situation/relationship may fall into this category, so just know that you're absolutely in the right place. And we're so glad you're here. There's help here. There's hope here.
Please tell us more when you're comfortable doing so and feel free to make yourself at home. You are among peers.
Keep writing if it helps.
-Speck