I cannot sleep or eat anything. The anxiety is so overwhelming at times I feel like checking into the hospital.
I have never experienced pain like this in my whole 45 year life. I can have her anytime I want. Thats never been an issue. I truly believe she loves me... .but she is ill. Im not sure how much longer I can stay upright at the moment.
I wish I had a word of advice, but all I have is one of support. I share your feelings exactly. Not as far as hospitalization, but I reconnected with my ex this weekend and she said she wanted for us to get help, now silence. I love her with all my heart, but the pain is too intense to keep on going through it at her whim. If she doesn't follow through by this weekend as promised, which she most likely will not since her promises are as a good as three dollar bill, I will block all her communication ability with me. Not because I am done with her, it is just self-preservation. I rather have the time for me to heal without her interference that to go with this back and forth situation.