First Post

[Depression = 72% of members]

Hi,
I have not been around for a while and this is my first post.  I have been married to my husband for 27 years, we have a son, moved out (not speaking to us) and a daughter that is still at home. 
Things seemed fine in the beginning... .actually that is NOT true, there were always issues, they were just directed toward his ex-wife the mother of his first son.  So much anger toward her for so many years. 

I am having such a difficult time writing this! It has taken over 2 hours since beginning to write.  I have a counselor that suggests I begin writing where I am at right now. I fear that if I put this in writing it will be true. How ridiculous is that thought?  It is a start.

[Kiah2]

Hi,
I have not been around for a while and this is my first post.  I have been married to my husband for 27 years, we have a son, moved out (not speaking to us) and a daughter that is still at home. 
Things seemed fine in the beginning... .actually that is NOT true, there were always issues, they were just directed toward his ex-wife the mother of his first son.  So much anger toward her for so many years. 

I am having such a difficult time writing this! It has taken over 2 hours since beginning to write.  I have a counselor that suggests I begin writing where I am at right now. I fear that if I put this in writing it will be true. How ridiculous is that thought?  It is a start.

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[braveSun]

Hello Kiah2   

I'm sorry that you find yourself in a difficult situation with your husband. It's a good thing that you have started your first post. I know how it feels. For a long time I have read other people's posts and didn't post. I also felt that posting was making everything more real. It's okay to feel the way you do.

The second good thing is that you will find here other people have been through similar experiences. You are not alone here.

Keep posting. Tell your story. You'll find that the more you post, the more you engage with the community, the more you'll benefit.

 

[Mutt]

Hi Kiah2,

 

I’d like to join Bravesun and welcome you to bpdfamily. I’m sorry for the circumstances that led you here. I didn’t know where to start either because I kept it all to myself who could I share with in real that gets it? I got looks like I was crazy when I was sharing things. You’re not alone this is a safe place where you can share your story bit by bit until all of it comes out it takes time it helps to talk.

[Turkish]

You made a good start Kiah2 

Where are you right now.  Are you safe?

[Kiah2]

"Where are you right now.  Are you safe?"

Sorry this has taken so long to write back, busy with my mom and I have had to learn how to reply to my post.  LOL

I am safe where I am. Thank You for asking Turkish. 

[pearlsw]

Hi Kiah2,

How are you today? Is it safe for you to write?

take care, pearl.