Hi TexasNanaB6 and welcome! You
have found a place where people understand
It must feel good to have a diagnosis after all these years. When we know what something is, it makes it easier to understand the behaviours we have experienced (although the diagnosis of BPD is never easy).
It's good that you have taken some space to restore your strength and I'm glad you have a strong support system around you.
The diagnosis is new to him and may take him some time to come to terms with it. While he is denying and placing the blame back on you, nothing is likely to change. Has his therapist suggested a treatment plan?
I am struggling with the picture of my life changing so drastically. And do I really want our life together to continue? I can say I want to but I’m finding it harder to believe I can deal with that life again. I’m feeling guilty that I’m leaving him just as we found out what the issue is. I feel I should do something to help him in his misery, for he is miserable.
These are important points for you to consider and take the time in reaching a decision. There's no need to rush back home now you have a diagnosis. You can certainly support him and encourage him to get help but enabling isn't healthy for you and hasn't changed anything for him in the years you have been doing it.
What do you think?
SaM x