hmmm... so it's been almost a month and a few days since my ubpdexbf and I broke up...
he texted me today saying he's very sorry and he didn't realize what he did until today and he said I was an awesome person. I tried replying something simple to see where the conversation would lead... so I just said "thank you." But he still has me blocked... I think he actually doesn't realize he blocked me... or he just wanted to get it off his chest maybe and not get a reply?
Thoughts? Anyone had this before?
Second set of questions...
is this charming ? Do you genuinely think he's sorry? I guess I wouldn't even know unless we had a conversation regardless... but it could be my choice anyways in the end if he's painting me white right now... what do you guys think?
I mean I'm not even given an option right now because I'm blocked but yah... I think this is where you guys' help/opinions would come in because I've never been in a situation like this before nor do I know what to expect/what my expectations should be etc. So I really appreciate anyone reading this and replying...
and just an FYI, thank you so much for your responses up until this point... you've been a wonderful support system and I will forever be grateful.
I'm still unsure if I would even want to be with him again because I feel I am not very emotionally capable. I don't know how I'd be able to not JADE. I am aware that is a hard thing for me right now not to do... on my own personal growth level.
However, today was the second day since we broke up that I cried... and when he texted me and I read his text I felt such an overwhelming wave of emotion and sadness come over me. So I finally was able to let most of my grief out... it felt SO GOOD even just to release that energy...
I am feeling a bit more refreshed /rejuvenated (I know it sounds odd) after my crying episode today.
I was picturing all the times he held me when I cried (when he was behaving well), and how many times when he was good, he was there for me and cared. I think that's where most of his and my issues lied... it was when we fought in person things ALWAYS resolved because he would see me sad and then feel bad and start crying too and we would both hug and cry... it was so intense.
And when we were fighting over the phone that's when it NEVER ended well. Just like our last and final argument (over text). I'm assuming that's the out of sight out of mind idea...?