Hi! I am glad you are reaching out for help and support. It takes a lot of courage to do so.
I have BPD and everyday I feel like my symptoms are becoming worse.
I am so sorry you are struggling. BPD is a difficult and complex disorder. This site is a support and recovery board for those people who have loved ones with BPD. As such, it can be very triggering for people with BPD to read and post here as we are all in various stages of recovery.
There are resources of the type you're seeking. Please check out
Resources for BPD Sufferers.I wish you well on your journey.
Harri