My question is you say you've been healing for four years - just curious to hear more about that, since you said you've ended the relationship 6 mos. ago. Glad to hear you're doing really well.
I'm also putting in the work, and hope to reach the mental state you have soon enough.
-TD
Hy Try,
In response to your question, I had a 10 year relationship end four years ago. Looking back on it we just grew a part. Anyways when that ended, it really sent me into self exploration and discovery. Little did I know it would open up so much from my past.
I was shocked to find myself in such a turmultuous relationship (this past one), but once I was out of it I realized something, all the work I had done leading up to it, is what allowed me to eventually get out of it. Had I not been concious of my patterns in the past, there's a possibility I'd still be in it thinking that, "well this is just love!"
Can you believe I was actually allowing her at one point to start to question everything I had learned up to that point? I was even left questioning my own therapist? I bent, but I never broke.
Keep at it, you'll get there. Don't rush it, one day at time.
Ryan