My mom... it’s not worth my mental state.

[Sotorn]

I made the huge mistake to go and live with my mother with my husband a new born child while I work on buying a new home because my lease was up. Big mistake I just can’t take it anymore my mother has severe bpd to the point it’s triggering memories of when I was a child which I had stored far away in the back of my brain. She’s absolutely horrible I don’t know what mood she will wake up to and I always feel like I’m walking on egg shells, but what’s worse is that I made a huge mistake to have my new born child in this hell hole. I protect my child but this purchasing a house is taking longer then what I expected which I don’t know if I’m willing to wait m. I have to protect my daughter and I need to make sure she never goes through what I went through. Also I am having my husband deal with this looney tunes life which I shouldn’t do. Ugh all we wanted was a better future for my daughter by taking our time to find that home for our daughter but I regret it bcuz it’s not worth my mental state.

[Turkish]

What is she doing or saying that's making it horrible? Is your baby safe?

Revisiting trauma must be very painful, but we're here to support you 

[Harri]

Hi Sotorn and welcome.

How are you doing today?

I hope you share more so we can support you better.  Taking care of yourself, a baby (congrats!) and your husband while living with your mom and dealing with memories of what happened is incredibly hard but it can be done.

Have you had a chance to read our Survivors Guide tacked to the top of this board?  It is a great place to start.  Read though it and see what you think. 

Hope to hear more from you soon.