Hi Luv2teachgs,
I'm sorry for the circumstances that led you to our side here. I'm glad that you decided to join us - there is hope. You will find many members here that can offer you guidance and support because they can relate with your situation. Read as much as you can about the disorder you will quickly see the benefits and become proficient over time.
The spot that you are in is difficult because you're pondering a lot of questions and probably thinking about different possibilities in the future if you made certains choices. We're here to work with you with where you are in your current situation right now - there's always someone that is online that you can talk to but we can't tell you to decided whether to leave or stay that's a decision that you'll have to decide the path to that is not always linear and it helps to have support there along the way. You're not alone.
Did you move back? Have you moved out in the past? If you have for how long?