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VIDEO: "What is parental alienation?" Parental alienation is when a parent allows a child to participate or hear them degrade the other parent. This is not uncommon in divorces and the children often adjust. In severe cases, however, it can be devastating to the child. This video provides a helpful overview.
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Who in your life has "personality" issues: Ex-romantic partner
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« on: August 28, 2020, 08:28:28 PM »

So I told my friend from HS (a buddy of mine I knew - 25 plus years) what I went through to get a 2nd, 3rd POV. He said I 'dodged a bullet' Red flag/bad  (click to insert in post). I told him I cant stop watching "90 day fiancee" because of her. Hard to do the whole association. I feel like Im still at fault when I know Im not. Its been a month. baby steps I know. Seek a therapist. I know. But I want to see if I can do this on my own. I know I didnt do wrong. I need to reprogram my brain. 

I think Im getting there slowly. Maybe I miss the sex, maybe I miss the cuddles. Maybe I miss the theory of being in love. or the idea of being in love. Or knowing in my mind Id not be alone.

Many variables. But I need to get there. I wish I can wake up one day and just forget 5 months of my life...
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« Reply #1 on: August 29, 2020, 02:52:51 PM »

so basically. I was listening to Linkin Park (#RIPCHESTER) In the End hit home to me because its how I feel about her.. and the situation...

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this, there's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this, there's only one thing you should know
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