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Author Topic: Update: Slowly rebuilding and detaching from the toxic and beaten, bruised...  (Read 341 times)
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Gender: Male
What is your sexual orientation: Straight
Who in your life has "personality" issues: Ex-romantic partner
Relationship status: Ex GF / Fiancée
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« on: August 28, 2020, 08:28:28 PM »

So I told my friend from HS (a buddy of mine I knew - 25 plus years) what I went through to get a 2nd, 3rd POV. He said I 'dodged a bullet' Red flag/bad  (click to insert in post). I told him I cant stop watching "90 day fiancee" because of her. Hard to do the whole association. I feel like Im still at fault when I know Im not. Its been a month. baby steps I know. Seek a therapist. I know. But I want to see if I can do this on my own. I know I didnt do wrong. I need to reprogram my brain. 

I think Im getting there slowly. Maybe I miss the sex, maybe I miss the cuddles. Maybe I miss the theory of being in love. or the idea of being in love. Or knowing in my mind Id not be alone.

Many variables. But I need to get there. I wish I can wake up one day and just forget 5 months of my life...
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« Reply #1 on: August 29, 2020, 02:52:51 PM »

so basically. I was listening to Linkin Park (#RIPCHESTER) In the End hit home to me because its how I feel about her.. and the situation...

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this, there's only one thing you should know

I've put my trust in you
Pushed as far as I can go
For all this, there's only one thing you should know
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