Health and CPTSD

[Zabava]

So after years of ineffective therapy, I have finally found someone who is helping me work through my childhood trauma.  I recently started EMDR, which I think will be very helpful in the long run.  Lately my therapist has been talking about healing before my health is affected by chronic stress.

Fast forward a few months and my doctor has told me i have high blood pressure and my heart is enlarged.  She said one possible culprit is the HRT I am on for anxiety and the effexor for depression.  All my googling has revealed that there is actually a direct link between chronic stress and all these conditions.  Yet another way that my mother has affected my life negatively.   I feel really discouraged by the fact that I have to take meds to stay sane and those meds are making me sick and my own body is making me sick.  I talked to my mother about my health and she said "I hope you don't drop dead, hahaha"

I was feeling so hopeful since starting some really good work with my therapist, but now I feel defeated.

[SaltyDawg]

Perhaps you might want to talk to your doctor about changing your medications that do not have these particular side effects?  Just a suggestion as sometimes this is temporary to a specific medicine/treatment/condition. 

[HappyChappy]

I feel really discouraged by the fact that I have to take meds to stay sane and those meds are making me sick ...

Sorry to hear you're feeling this way, but what's the difference between taking vitamin pills or med pills ? No shame, possibly there are other meds that might fit ?