Hi Milatuo and
So much of your story is so familiar -- when things are good, especially at the start, life is really good, but when things are bad, life is really bad. Like you said, at the start of the relationship, he adored you like crazy, but over time, the conflict increased. I'm sorry you're going through that pain.
While it isn't inevitable that the marriage is destroyed -- couples have come back from similar challenges -- it is certainly a difficult situation.
A good place to start is working on your own health. We are the only persons we can control. We can't control our partners -- not how they think, feel, or act. But we can control ourselves and improve our own mental, physical, and emotional health. That can in turn change the relationship.
You mention this question:
Do i have disorder also ?
Do i have problems also ?
Whether you do or don't, getting mental health support from a counselor or therapist can only help in your situation. It's really normal to see a counselor or therapist, even if you don't have a personality disorder. It might give you peace of mind to get an assessment from a professional, and to know what your issues truly are, so you don't worry about what-ifs and can focus on improving yourself instead.
Do you think that's something you could try?
Let us know how the last few days have been for you, and again, welcome;
kells76
