Spoke too soon. Tonight there was raging about being everyone's slave and then being "discarded"..... Then she went to lie down as needed some space while I sorted kids meals and bath time and tidied the days mess I didn't cause after a crap week of work. Is there no awareness?

Just came back from a family vacation with my daughter who has BPD.  She is a single Mom of 2 year old.  Huge blow out… she was completely out of control in front of her child. Police were called…. just awful. 

I am at a complete lost on how to stop or at least minimize these occurrences.

I am looking for any resources that can help me and our family

I am so sorry.
Many of us know how scary this is, and how you will be on “high alert” all the time.
A child threatening/attempting suicide is horrific for their parents, and there is little to no acknowledgement of this or support from health care teams.

I found tremendous comfort and support from doing an online (Zoom) Family Connections 13 week program with other parents with children with BPD. The primary focus is building skills in DBT, but the relief in talking with other parents was also important for me. To not feel so alone and inept, seemingly unable to make things any better.

You may want to see if that program might suit you too.

Caring for someone with BPD is not only about supporting them. You have to support yourself too.
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I know the threats and they escalate.  My ex was never violent, but she likes to position herself to make herself the victim.

I told her that her veiled accusations I take as a threat and that is why I cannot be in contact.

I also know about being stuck with a life that is now over and they want to trap you in it.  

They don't want you, but they need someone who will take away the fears.  

Sometimes one-person isn't enough.  

The way to do is, to not start to break down what happened and seek closure.  I believe that was something I did wrong on reflection.  Because you can't get that kind of closure from someone with a mental illness.  You can't deal with their logic because that just causes more confusion for you.  

I just kept moving forward with closing finances, how that works legally, step by step and didn't stop.  I had to do everything, and she OMG put so many hurdles in the way.  It took me a year to get out of our house.  She had left me in.  Documents that had to be signed I had to ask twenty times. Get the comments.  I treat her like a child, I don't let her have space to do things she needs to.  She trusted me and I did the wrong thing.  Two months to sign a form.  It was a long long process.

When he finds out you moved his stuff he might unleash on you.  He will bring in trust issues and blame.

Have your message ready.  

Without telling what to say.   I would say....  I put your belongings into storage, so they are safe.  I have paid for the storage for a month so that gives you time to decide what you want to do with them.  Tell him how he is able to collect them.

I wouldn't put an ultimatum in there like I won't pay after a month or any comments like I wanted your stuff out of my house.  Because he will latch on to that and only that.   Then he will refuse to collect them to create a drama.

Keep records.  Get your text messages into a cloud storage.  Don't leave them on your phone.  You have that phone taken there goes your evidence.  Do not get angry, he wants you to get angry because that makes him feel better plus then he has something against you.  Make sure someone you trust knows exactly what is happening.

I find the messages do get into their heads after a while.    You just need to make them simple and not accusatory.

I told my ex that the most important thing is she is safe and I am.  That I want her to be safe, to do what she needs to keep herself safe.   We are not safe together and that is why I can't have contact with her.  I think that sinks in.  It's truthful and they have fears are about being safe, so they can relate to it.   That is isn't my job to create that safety for her, she has to do it.

I wouldn't tell you to go to the police or not.  I don't know.  

After this contact.  I would remove any way he can contact you.  If that means changing phone numbers, do it.  All your email addresses, all social media.  I would advise anyone he can call to get your new details that he might contact them.  They all need to have the same response for not giving out your details and prepared.  

I would actually tell him you will not be contacting him anymore and to please not contact you in anyway again.  Wrap it up in a nice bow.  Have a good life, you wish him well etc.  

Then you have a record.  Then if he does anything to break it, you have something tangible to take to the police.

CrazytownSA, that sounds like a good plan. Let us know how it goes and how you feel, reach out for support any time.

No need for apologies my friend! On the contrary, I greatly value these exchanges and am immensely grateful for this space where we can all share  .

It does make sense in my situation. Today, I feel happy . I see the light at the end of the tunnel. I understand that this feeling may not last forever, but I am working towards having the tools to navigate whatever situations life throws at me.


Ah, boundaries. You and me both `don`t get this stuff right`  . Here is my thinking right now:
- I pondered how I am as a person. I am very soft, sensitive, and appeasing. I like to dote on people, and during conflict I want to bridge the divide by going towards the other person. For a long time, I wanted to be different; I wanted to be strong and be able to put people in their place. While I can certainly work on becoming more assertive, I love myself as I am. He certainly does have a valid point in saying that someone who is more like my second description may be what he needs in a partner. I don`t think I can provide that, and it`s okay;
- I also realized that a lot of what I was categorizing as romantic feelings for him would better be considerd unresolved feelings. The time we truly seperated (which I consider to be when he started his latest relationship) was honestly pretty traumatizing for me. I have since forgiven him for the things he said, for my own sake (I don`t even think he remembers), but when I view those emotions as being a tether in my brain to the past, I realize that I wouldn`t want to be with him now, either;
- Of course, there is some hesitancy in these realizations. Their timing is a little opportunistic in the sense that if having romantic feelings for him was what was getting in the way of talking to him, well now I have this reasoning that allows for me to bypass that and be there for him;
- So, back to boundaries. I think that if I maintain my role as support, and not friend with him, I am okay. That`s an important distinction. Again, it`s not super clear, as after I told him I can be his support he said that he doesn`t feel comfortable. Then he said that he will sit with it. Then he sent me an article about BPD, and we`ve been exchanging a couple of thoughts. It`s honestly pretty similar to an exchange we`d have here on the forum. My T said it is important for me to ponder what boundaries would serve me, what obstacles might come up (even if it`s something like I`d feel distressed and anxious). Time will tell, and I`m paying attention to how I feel. I feel supported by her, and by this community.

@Pook075 I've had her arrested.  I have had her hospitalized.  The state gave her back to me, untreated and said I am the problem.  I've had ACS called three times. Each time, after really talking in depth to both of us, looking at evidence from both of us, having us do family therapy, where she dropped out and I maintained it, they said, "Yeah, she's the problem, but we can't do anything to help you."  More or less. She's under 21, and in my state, I need a judge from family court to allow her to be removed from my home. In order to do that, I have to build a case that has VIDEO evidence of her doing things to me.  One can imagine how difficult it can be to get that. The minute my phone gets out, is the minute it's knocked out of my hand and smashed. 

I'm not dealing with a normal person. She gave away her phone, and I let her sit without one for six months. It was more hassle for me that it seemed for her.  Her whole life, she would revel in sitting in her own consequences, and then later use this to prove her abuse and martyrdom. Her current narrative  is how I had her sent to the mental hospital and manipulated everyone to hold a perfectly sane girl in holding.  As if a trained psychiatrist didn't have to make that call. 

I feel like the only call that can be is complete seperation for good or until she gets treatment and sees the destruction she has brought to our relationship. But getting there, I don't know how I can get there with her.  This is why I keep trying. 

@kells76 

Her father and I are divorced. We lived together for some time after the divorce until I finally moved.  That was when she was about 12 and she got signficantly worse during that time.

He is currently living with me. A long story short, I had removed MYSELF from my own apartment on and off for about 15 months in the past 24 months. She was so destructive and abusive, I needed peace of mind and some place that I felt safe from the constant abuse in all forms. The last six months, I asked him to keep and eye on her and my place which she had previously trashed when I was away.   When I had to return (my friend was returing from traveling and needed her place back), I asked him to be there to supervise because I was too afraid to be alone with her. In fact, I am ALWAYS afraid when she is around.  Any boundary I set is met with physical violence, destruction of property, or verbal abuse that goes on for at least two hours or more.  So I do my best to keep the peace. I know that isn't boundary settings, but her level of esculation is more than any person can take.

Her dad says "she's just desperate for you to love her."  Well dang, she has a funny way of showing it.  It's a lot.  I've tried and tried and tried. Nothing I do is right in her eyes, and the blame shifting and the ever shifting targets. I will never met her expectations unless she starts therapy.

Hey Divina and welcome to the forums.

Let me ask you a quick question.  What would you do if I drove to your house tonight, took your favorite jacket, then spit on you and spray painted you when I was confronted?

Because whatever that answer is, that's also what you should do with your daughter every single time she lashes out.

I get that your kid says she wants a loving relationship with you- that's really sweet.  I want to learn how to fly like Superman.  But the problem is, I've never done anything to begin my training...so I can't fly.  Words are meaningless without actions behind them.

Your title, "what does she want", if off-base.  Nobody here cares what she wants because we're here to help you.  And regardless of what your kid wants, we're going to tell you not to give it to her until she's treating you like a loving, respectful daughter.

Why?

Because she's abusive, but you continue to try to give, and she continues to get more abusive.  That tells us that she's not learning right from wrong, which is really your biggest job as a parent.  She has to understand that bad behavior gets bad results every time, while good behavior gets good results sometimes.

You have one play here- stop enabling her.  If she assaults you, call the police and have her arrested.  If she steals or screams or blames you, then ask her to leave your home.  Teach her right from wrong and stop allowing her to manipulate you.

I know that sounds ultra harsh, but enabling her bad behavior is making the living conditions a nightmare for everybody.  It's also keeping her from becoming responsible though, which will have drastic consequences for her later in life.  It has to stop for your sake and everyone else in the house.

Now, I will say that her borrowing a jacket and not returning it is not the end of the world.  It is wrong, of course, but you have to learn to pick your battles when dealing with BPD.  If it's that big of a deal to you, then find a suitable punishment (I'd cancel her cell phone until everything is returned...washed and neatly folded).  She will naturally rebel against the punishment, which is where you ramp up the consequences again (she's not welcome there until she apologizes).  You must stop walking on eggshells and accepting abuse.

Has anyone on her used DBT for their child?  If so, how did it go?  Were there any good results from it?

Are there any options anyone knows about for DBT therapy online that my 13 year old daughter can do?