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 on: January 29, 2026, 07:51:54 PM  
Started by maxsterling - Last post by Rowdy
Hi Rowdy ,

I see your point, that whatever drama you add to the life of pwBPD, they will stick to it through life and keep talking about it, right? Well, that's not precise.

When they bring up stuff, this is an unconscious attempt to reproduce it and feel themselves in a threatening situation again, but while they do it, they try to avoid the consequences. For instance, the suicide "attempts" are not actually intended to kill. Yes, among all BPD patients that attempt suicide, 10% of them actually die, but this is almost always an accident. A person who actually wants to die doesn't tell anybody about it and rarely fails.

In this video, you can see an example of a girl who tried uncountable suicide attempts until she threw herself in front of a train, and then ... well, she lost a leg but didn't die. A real suicide is not done in this dramatic fashion, and whatever is done targets the head, not the legs.

So, how does this translate to a relationship? The rule is simple: they only go for behaviors in which they don't care about the consequences, or they feel like they have some control over the consequences and can avoid the worst.

If you have a secret affair and she knows it's just for extra adventure, then she will haunt you on that and keep bringing this up for years later. But when there is a clear risk of you leaving her for this other woman, then she will behave like a princess to try to keep you close.

Similarly, if you pretend that you are interested in someone else and you are open about it, and she feels truly threatened by it and feels like any drama would push you further away, then she will make her best effort to please you and make you want to stay.

Then in the future she won't want to create drama over it, because she will be afraid that it could happen again (even knowing that it was fake). Maybe if she feels really safe to talk about it, she may bring it up, maybe when drunk, but not with an aggressive attitude, but just opening up like a normal person does.

All of what I said is confirmed by my 25+ years of experience with 4 different disordered partners, in which BPD was the issue most of the time.

So yes, I think faking a gay affair would have a positive effect on the relationship, as long as she does think that it is real and legitimate. If she feels like it is just a way of pressuring her or taking revenge, then it will backfire.






Not necessarily. Back in 2008 I learned of my wife’s infidelity that had happened a few years earlier. We split up for a few months. During those few months I became close to someone. My wife and I got back together, but there were issues I had with trust, I even doubted the paternity of my youngest child. The feelings I had developed for this other person that was there for me through the breakup escalated, but I eventually got over them. My wife was aware of this, but it actually helped me get over my wife’s infidelity because I realised we are all fallible and can make mistakes.

Do you think knowing this stopped my wife from bringing it up in every argument we had for the next 15 years? No it didn’t. Do you think she used that as an excuse for how she discarded me 15 years later? Yes, of course she did.

I don’t know what exactly you have tried, but is it to the extreme of trying to convince your wife you are in a gay relationship? Because that is quite an extreme thing to do.

At best, the chances of it working are 50/50. My point being, why would you manufacture a situation that has a 50% chance of having the opposite effect desired, and the possibility to completely destroy the relationship through something fabricated out of desperation.

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 on: January 29, 2026, 07:42:50 PM  
Started by SuperDaddy - Last post by CC43
Hi there,

You pose an interesting question.  I have a pwBPD and a pwuNPD in my life, and after several years living in the midst of their high-conflict and chaotic lives, I have a couple of takeaways.

First off, going no contact might be the only way to lessen conflict for a time.  If you read these boards, I think you'll see that the topic of going Low Contact or No Contact is talked about frequently, because people find themselves in a similar situation:  they feel constantly attacked and abused, and no matter what they do, nothing seems to stop the onslaught.  Therefore the only recourse to find peace and regain some sanity in life seems to be going Low Contact or completely No Contact.  The reasons the topic is debated so much include the practical realities of reducing contact (What to do at family gatherings?  What if children are involved?  What if there's a real emergency?), as well as conflicting feelings about love, obligation, responsibility and fear for the pwBPD's very life.

Of course, going no contact isn't feasible with shared living quarters, and people might reach a crisis point where they decide that leaving the home or asking the pwBPD to leave is the only viable option.  That critical juncture might arise because the pwBPD threatens or commits violence, constantly hurls verbal attacks or is otherwise acting in an abusive manner that has become intolerable.  It happens when "walking on eggshells" turns into "walking on landmines."  So yeah, there comes a point where there's an escalation, and the abusive behavior is unrelenting, leading loved ones to take drastic measures.  Why?  Because nothing else has worked.  No matter how much love, reassurances, bail-outs, concessions, therapy and boundary setting there has been, the pwBPD's behavior makes the home intolerable.  If you read these boards you'll see that this sort of situation is precisely the one that drives people here looking for answers!  And it's not as if they aren't trying.  If they are here, my sense is that it's because they really care, and they are trying their hardest, but they are despondent because nothing seems to work.  The thing is, for a relationship to work, both people have to try.  It won't work if you're the only one trying and the pwBPD has given up.  Unfortunately, you can't compensate by trying even harder.  Your partner has to work at it too.  She might be determined to life a life of misery, and she can take you down with her if you let her.  You might have to decide to save yourself and your kids.  You know that analogy of the frog in water that gradually heats up to boiling?  Is your home near the boiling point?

Another takeaway I have is that the pwuNPD in my life is just plain argumentative.  He is wired for conflict.  He finds problems and conflict absolutely everywhere:  with family, (ex)friends, work (until he gets fired), police, people he hires (and fires), neighbors, etc.  It's as if his life revolves around conflict.  He FEEDS off of it.  The police know about him and keep a fat file on him.  I guess it's no surprise he is trained as a lawyer, because he likes arguing!  He likes beating people into submission!  You ask, How to stop being attacked?  My answer is that you basically can't stop an attacker from attacking, short of a restraining order.  That's what it took for the pwuNPD in my life.  But the reality is, it was impossible to completely avoid contact alltogether, because of the children.  At some level there's continued interaction around visitation and child support.  I think he views that as a window of opportunity to "attack" the "enemy" (his ex wife).  My opinion is he will never stop attacking, because it's his nature, he likes it and in a bizarre way, it's working for him.  I think the only way of "tolerating" his hostility and personal attacks is to minimize contact, and communicate only using BIFF--being Brief, Informative, Friendly and Firm.  In other words, don't respond with emotional content, stick to facts (e.g. logistics) and don't give him anything he can criticize or latch onto, let alone debate.  If he's just "spamming" with false accusations, empty threats or snide remarks, then I'd say, delete the spam because it is spam.

But maybe you're thinking, but CC43, my loved one with BPD isn't that vindictive.  She can be loving.  She's just unstable sometimes, and she's a bit paranoid and petulant.  She takes everything the wrong way, and she lashes out with bitterness.  I love her deeply, but right now she sees me as the enemy.  I'd say, yes that can happen, she's painted you all black.  And maybe since she's not living with you right now, she's not benefitting from your constant emotional/moral/logistical/financial support.  She's thrust in the "real world" fending herself, while lacking the emotional fortitude and mental toughness to handle it.  Without really knowing much about your situation, I'd venture a guess that your loved one is feeling more stress right now, and she's taking it out on YOU.  That's very typical with BPD.  The lashings out, passive-aggressive behaviors and hostility usually amp up whenever she's feeling stressed out, because she lacks emotional coping skills.  My take is, her behavior probably has little to do with you at all.  You're just the object of her frustration/fury/anger because you're the closest person to her.  Nobody else would tolerate it.  Does that make sense?

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 on: January 29, 2026, 06:49:49 PM  
Started by SuperDaddy - Last post by ForeverDad
Even before I was separated, I had tried to get counseling for my spouse, then I tried to start counseling for us but she refused so I had sessions for myself.

For whatever reason, probably sheer ignorance of my options, it didn't occur to me to seek counseling for our child.  I recall my attorney commenting, "Courts love counseling" for everyone.  It's been noted here that even if only one parent seeks counseling and the other parent objects, courts will typically consider the best interests of the child and order that it proceed.

I asked because so many arriving here are not aware of their options and for that reason this site shares the information that counseling is beneficial.  We don't know in advance whether someone is aware or not.

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 on: January 29, 2026, 04:33:09 PM  
Started by maxsterling - Last post by maxsterling
If she decides to have a "fling" my response would be something like:

"It's clear now this marriage will no longer work for me and I think we need to find a way of separating so that we can both pursue relationships that are more in line with our desires."

She already knows where I stand on this.  And she already knows it will lead to a breakup. 

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 on: January 29, 2026, 03:59:52 PM  
Started by SuperDaddy - Last post by SuperDaddy
I noticed that you joined us years ago and never posted until recently.  Most arrive here quite distressed rather than ambivalent.  I know I sure did.  Those were dark days indeed for me.  So... what are your needs?

In 2015, I was living with my BPD ex, and the single problem we had was her jealousy of stepkids. It was difficult, but I was not in pain or anything like that. I was reading many books on BPD trying to solve a problem, so I registered in multiple forums but opted to participate in private forums instead of here because she was "stalking" me. Later, I got her pregnant, and then again, and gradually things got much worse, and I gradually strayed away from her.

Also, you have children from three failed or failing relationships.  Are their needs discerned and handled to optimize having balance in their futures?  While the littlest ones may be too young for even play therapy, do the older ones have access to counseling to enable them to have objectivity and normalcy in their daily lives?

Correct me if I'm wrong, but I feel like you are judging me as someone who is irresponsible and who causes damage to kids due to bad decisions and perhaps even neglect? Anyway, I don't see a point in defending against this, but I can summarize how hard it was.

Your accomplishments seem very impressive, and I was also doing well in the beginning, when I only had one battler to fight for. I was at a great disadvantage, and she had temporary custody, and I would turn tables. But in 2012 I got betrayed by my own lawyers twice. The first only wanted my money, and the second was advocating in favor of my ex (her work partners said that). As a result, I ended up with a shared custody agreement when I should have gone for full custody since I had serious proof of child abuse. Then in 2019, my second wife began to turn against me, and shortly after, my first ex took advantage of COVID to brainwash the kids and zero out my parenting time. Unfortunately, courts had thousands of cases like that and ignored all of them, so I kept doing what was feasible and within reach only. Now I'm working out my 3rd relationship while still in lots of court processes with my ex's, but I can't win 3 difficult wars at the same time, so I have been focusing on the younger ones, which are doing well. The older ones are out of reach, have been completely brainwashed, and are almost adults now.

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 on: January 29, 2026, 03:39:22 PM  
Started by maxsterling - Last post by mitochondrium
Hi maxsterling,

I would advise you to state your boundary firmly in an email - that way you have a proof. And you also get to say everyting you want without circular argument interruprions. You could also write in your email that you could talk about it at set time later. Then you could also record this conversation. Just stay calm and state your boundary firmly again.

Good luck!

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 on: January 29, 2026, 02:40:33 PM  
Started by DesertDreamer - Last post by SuperDaddy
Hi DesertDreamer,

Congratulations! You succeeded in having a productive conversation with her and took charge of your own mental health.

Now it's time to try stopping the racing thoughts and then weigh your options. Have you considered the possibility of having a LAT relationship?

"A relationship where both partners are in a committed, romantic partnership but choose to live in separate homes is called a Living Apart Together (LAT) relationship."

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 on: January 29, 2026, 02:26:13 PM  
Started by SuperDaddy - Last post by SuperDaddy
Hi Pook075,

I completely understand the part that you had to let go of the hurt, anger, sadness, etc. The part that I did not understand was how you switched from being neutral/indifferent to your ex to "loving her." Talking once every 2-3 months is understandable. What I did not understand is where the love emerged from. But maybe it's because you had many good years together and still have good memories?

Maybe that's because, unlike my ex-wives, your ex didn't do further harm after the separation. I'm assuming she didn't keep trying to rob you of your property, money, and kids?

If I share my story, you'll note it's completely different than yours. The story of both of my ex-wives is very similar, with a gap of 7 years between both divorces. The second ex actually wrote down and copied the steps of the first ex, as she wanted to gain the same advantages.

I was the one who gave up on the relationship, simply because I was not attracted to them anymore and gave up on making it work. However, they got angry that I was having my own life, so they took advantage of the fact that we were still living together, in my inherited property, to apply a scam targeting financial advantages.

Both were physically violent when feeling rejected and made false criminal accusations against me of domestic violence when, in reality, I was the one being spanked. I had some bruises and bites, but DV laws here only serve women. After separation, they kept digging up the old archived false accusations to gain further advantages and for vindictive reasons (because I had built a new family). In total I got acquitted from more than 10 false accusations (because there was no proof and their facts were incoherent), but meanwhile their goal of getting advantages in courts was accomplished, nevertheless. And I got years of unnecessary stress and lost lots of money to lawyers.

They also told endless lies in court to take financial advantage, and both do parental alienation of the kids. I met my first ex more than 10 years later, in court, and she was still angry like a dog, unprovoked. But the real reason that sustains their behavior is that they can use the kids to get financial advantage. It is not because of any negative interaction or reaction of mine. Both still live on my property, for free, despite having no rights. All of that because courts are extremely slow and unreliable. Also, because I am exhausted of it and lack the energy to keep fighting.

I'm guessing you would not love those ex-wives, would you?

If I somehow did love my ex-wives and was "always there for them," then that could be helpful, perhaps with their anger management. Yet, I don't think that would lead to any sort of fair agreement regarding pension, property, or parenting time. Because they are completely self-centered and opportunistic. Actually, shortly after the separation, I tried this. But being close and helpful was only working for their goals, not for mine. So I began to be just diplomatic, but they always wanted more contact and proximity. And that brought me jealousy troubles in my new relationship, understandably.

However, with my current wife, things are different, because she has a better character (not perfect, but not a scammer either). In case we did follow different paths, I don't think she would be my enemy at all.

Currently I'm being cold with her. I was being lovable and helpful, but the past keeps being brought up in our conversations by both of us, and it doesn't go well because both of us have resentments about the past.

If she had left when I asked for it, then we would not have had such bad memories, but instead she turned my life into hell for a long period while refusing to leave. And I don't want to let go of my resentment, because I already have this tendency to let go too easily, but now I need to make sure it never happens again. I kind of feel threatened by the possibility of forgetting the past, bringing her back, and then going through all of it again.

So I want to hold on to the memories until her distorted views are reversed by treatment (if that ever happens). Once I see that her attitude has changed, then I'll be cool with leaving the past behind and giving us (her) a new chance. Does that make sense?

Anyway, I still think we will have a success story. I have a secret, which I can't share here because it could be interpreted as medical guidance, but this is the reason why I still have hope. She will go through two specific drug treatments, which should completely change her mood and compulsions in less than two months. Then DBT will do the rest of the job, unwinding her problematic patterns.

For so many years I have been putting hope in possible ways of dealing with BPD, so I have always been overoptimistic. However, this time my hopes are grounded in BPD scientific studies and case reports.

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 on: January 29, 2026, 11:10:26 AM  
Started by DesertDreamer - Last post by DesertDreamer
Hi community - just writing here to sort of journal about what's going on, for my own sake.

I asked for space from my wife, and we've been able to set that up. I'm alone for three weeks and hopefully in that time, no emotional upsets will come hurtling my way. In the stillness, I've been feeling immense guilt and grief, almost to an unbearable degree. I know this period of distance hurts her, and I know there's a strong possibility that I won't come back from it - I'm sure she can sense that. I still don't really know how to see my situation clearly enough to really evaluate whether to stay or go, but I do know that my mind and body felt at their limits.

This week I've been thinking about how intimacy between us - both emotional and sexual - eroded. I always shook off the explanation that the lack of emotional safety could've contributed. Now that I'm allowing the idea of this lack of emotional safety to come through, I don't know how I could ever rebuild it, or if I even want to, given that I'm also to expect/accept that her condition might always result in out-of-the-blue emotional turmoil. I feel so guilty for simply not wanting to do the relationship, and I feel so much grief around losing this vital partnership.


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 on: January 29, 2026, 10:39:21 AM  
Started by dtkm - Last post by CC43
Hi again,

So if you allow me to do a little more mind reading, what I see is that your husband is trying.  He's going to therapy, and when he's in a good mood, he's helpful.  But he still struggles, because it's hard to change his natural emotional and learned behavioral responses, and deep down he continues to feel incredibly insecure.  I think he knows perfectly well that you turned on the home alarm because you thought you'd be alone for the night.  But his natural impulse is to lash out, to yell at you, because he was ANNOYED and highly reactive to feeling the slightest stress or inconvenience, such as setting off a loud alarm.  Instead of taking it in stride, and maybe helping you by shutting it off and easing the kids back to sleep, he goes straight into accusation mode ("You intentionally try to keep me out"), putting you on the defensive.  Furthermore, he's thought about you having an affair often because he's insecure, and in so doing he's worn a rut in his brain, making this negative thought pop up whenever he sees you exercise a life that is the slightest bit independent of him.  He lashes out to release the negative feelings and to try to reel you into the emotional drama.  He bosses you around in a vain attempt to reclaim control.  He makes untrue accusations all the time, right where it hurts most (You're keeping the kids from me!  You're seeing another man!).  He can act like a bully to get you do things that he wants and you don't.  Right?  I'm saying this because my husband acts the exact same way sometimes--I wouldn't say he has BPD, but he shows some of the traits from time to time when he's under stress and feeling insecure.  His adult daughter who has been diagnosed with BPD shows these behaviors (albeit in the female, more passive-aggressive manifestation) all the time.  She too has gotten treatment and has shown some progress in moderating her emotional outbursts and blaming tendencies, but nevertheless they're still there, and her life and relationships, though better than they used to be, are suboptimal because of her emotional reactivity, taking everything like a personal affront.

It sounds to me that your husband relies on moving back and forth between houses, perhaps as a distraction from getting his work done.  I'm saying that because my adult BPD stepdaughter does that all the time--driving back and forth, changing up living situations, bouncing from couch to couch, this constant movement which feels like procrastination and a distraction, anything to avoid getting actual work done!  Then she'll work one day, and she'll need two or three days to recover.  When she has her own space, she feels comfortable, and yet, it allows her to retreat and be too comfortable, as well as lonely.  I suspect she spends inordinate time procrastinating (with TV and social media), anything to avoid "real life" and facing responsibilities.  When she's in her own space, far away from prying eyes, she can get away with procrastinating even more, until she falls inextricably behind.  If allowed too much space, she eventually self-destructs. . . .

I think you're trying really hard to create an environment to accommodate your husband's ongoing challenges.  You're stepping up to take care of bills to avoid arguments.  You've created a separate space where he can self-regulate.  I love the idea of regular work outs to manage his "energy."  I love the idea of a job that has a schedule and some predictibility to it.  I love the idea of your husband going into the workplace to foster some workplace interactions--anything to enforce a routine and take some of the focus away from you, as well as an opportunity for him to forge other relationships and accomplishments that would build up his identity and self-esteem.  It does sound like he has potential, if only he'd learn to embrace the notion of a predictable schedule, and if only he'd use his emotional regulation skills more consistently.  It seems to me like he knows it, but he just can't seem to follow through consistently.  He's too easily "derailed" by his emotional reactivity and moodiness.  His daily choices aren't yet where they need to be.

I'm not sure what to advise.  On the one hand, I think I'd encourage and praise him abundantly any time he follows through with healthy habits ("It looks like you had a decent workout, your committment to the treadmill in the mornings is really impressive/I'm glad you were able to work all day uninterrupted at home, it must feel great to get so much work done/It's so nice to wake up and see a smiling husband first thing in the morning/Thanks for taking out the trash, I appreciate having such a helpful husband/I'm proud of you for committing for therapy, my guess is that it must be hard, but I see you're really trying.")  It's not very difficult for me to make these sorts of comments, because they're true!  And I think that by being reassuring, it can help husbands to see that following through on seemingly mundane things is actually conducive to a happy life. 

Yet it may be that no matter how hard he tries, your husband might never learn to control his impulsive outbursts and learn to "do things he doesn't necessarily want to do" for long-term benefits.  But it does sound like he's reasonable when he's in a good mood.  Maybe you could try to talk with him when he's in one of his good moods and ask that he take some topics off the table.  You might say, Darling, I love you and choose to be with you every day.  It's very distressing for me when you accuse me of seeing other men (or threaten divorce), when you know perfectly well that I've been nothing but committed to you and our kids.  I feel hurt and insulted when you say that, and I don't like feeling that way.  I don't like having to defend myself of false accusations, and I don't want the kids to hear you say that about their mom.  It's not fair to me or to them, we don't deserve that.  Saying I'm having an affair doesn't solve any of our issues, it only creates ill feelings.  From now on, if you accuse me of an affair, I'm not going to discuss it any further.  If you say it in front of the kids, I'm going to insist that you leave (the house/room).

Anyway, when it comes to BPD, I tend to think that the direction of movement is more important than the speed of change.  Do you feel like your husband is "on track" more than "off track"?  Is he generally headed in the right direction?  Look, he's going to go off the rails sometimes, because that's the nature of BPD.  The question I have for you is, is he getting back "on track" pretty fast?  If he is, then I think you have some reason for hope, and that the therapy is working.

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