thanks wanttoknow. i feel a lot better for sure. i can honestly say in my 36 years on this planet I never have felt more lost ever as I did after I dated a woman who was diagnosed with Bpd.
I understand that this is an illness but I tried so hard while I was in the relationship to make things right and every time I would think things were going great the bottom dropped from underneath me leaving me falling into a bottomless hole.
I never want to experience the pain and suffering that she has caused me and I consider myself lucky that I did not let things continue on after all that happened over this summer.
I guess you can say i learned my lesson the hard way and hard it is for sure.
Jim
You took the words right out of my mouth. Exactly what I experienced.
ynguns2
Yea, My ex did the same thing to me. It made me feel small, and like somehow I was not good enough, and makes me sick to this day. That is one thing that I could never shake, I felt dirty when I was with her, nothing was sacred everything had a sinister twist, or some dirty story. It got old, it is one of the biggest things that keeps me from ever contacting her again. Mine had a history, and her history made me sick, and makes me sick to this day. I will never shake it.
They also use it as a form of control, and they also use it to test your love, to see if you care about them, they watch your reaction to the stories. Not to mention they are compulsive liars so you will really never know how much of what they are saying is real, or made up to get you to react.
RUN.
I agree... . And this was when my BPDex was only 21! The number of guys (and girls) she has had sex with is staggering; and some of the stories even moreso. It pains me to say it, but honestly if my BPDex had all of the dicks that she has had stuck IN her, sticking OUT of her, she would look like a porcupine. I find myself kind of bewildered looking back that I found myself with this girl... . I think a large part of it has to do with it having been my first relationship EVER, and me being thirsty for feelings of being wanted... . but I can truthfully say that I do not want to marry or settle down with a girl who has slept with as many people as my BPDex has. It is just dirty to me and screams of having a lack of respect for yourself.