Till My Death due us Part?

I'ma relatively healthy male in my 40's, and have been dating a younger women with BPD on and off (go figure) for about 2 yrs. I do have High Blood Pressure which is usually controlled but this relationship is literally Killing Me! We stayed and lived together for a full year and one day she simply told me she was bored. She completely disconnected from me and made me feel so ignored and unwanted I moved out. She completely ignored all forms of communication with me, so I walked away and went into NC. I was devastated. I feel into a deep depression, stopped taking care of myself as well as taking my meds for my HBP. One day while standing on the porch I became very light head, saw nothing but red before me and I passed out. I ended up gashing my forehead pretty badly and still have that scar. Out of the blue, 3 months later she calls me asking to meet. I agreed. We were like two teenagers and had wild, passionate sex. We were on again. This lasted 4 months. One day after helping her out all day doing and running errands I was installing a refrigeration unit at her place and I had to run to the store. I was frustrated that I ended up going to several stores to finally find the part I needed. I walked into the house in a bad mood. She asked what was wrong and I shrugged it off. Once I installed the window unit she says to me that she can tell I No Longer want to be w/her and that I should leave and Never come back? Once again, bottom dropped and I fell into bummer mode for several months, lost almost 20 lbs and ended up in the hospital.

3 months after nothing, she re-appears. Yes of course... duh... I fell for it again. This time, I asked for better communication. She agreed. 3 months go by and she tells me she doesnt love me anymore? This time I became very angry and wanted to talk it out. She called the cops. Even though I was on my HBP meds I became so upset that I had a TIA(transient ischemic attack) warning stroke. Now my left hand, pinky and ring finger are numb. So that's it! I cant/wont do this Anymore... I'm Done and though I Love her to ":)eath" it's just not worth my life and soul. If there's anyone that is going through Round 1, save yourself and walk away.



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