What crazy dreams are you having, what do they mean?

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

I am driving drunk in rain so awful I can't see. I tell myself to focus on the road. I see a dark spot in the road up ahead, and do not know until I hit it that I have saved a man being attacked by a bear until I hit the bear. The bear leaps into my open topped vehicle and attacks me piece by piece all the way down the road. We drive throughout the rain, and the puddles. The bear rips off half of my face, and I look to see the damage, but it's not me, it's someone else, wearing a mask in which half of the face reveals the skeleton left behind.

What it means: This is my path through life. I don't want to see or confront anything. My life is out of control. There is crying, sadness, forgiveness, and grace all around. I am willing to compromise my beliefs for something greater. Death and renewal eat away at me. My strength and independence is stripped off my body. My anger is uncontrollable. The situation is domineering, and threatening. My feelings are downplayed and over looked. I am lost, blurred as I struggle against deceit, falsehood, and jealousy.

[buterfly]

I am driving drunk in rain so awful I can't see. I tell myself to focus on the road. I see a dark spot in the road up ahead, and do not know until I hit it that I have saved a man being attacked by a bear until I hit the bear. The bear leaps into my open topped vehicle and attacks me piece by piece all the way down the road. We drive throughout the rain, and the puddles. The bear rips off half of my face, and I look to see the damage, but it's not me, it's someone else, wearing a mask in which half of the face reveals the skeleton left behind.

What it means: This is my path through life. I don't want to see or confront anything. My life is out of control. There is crying, sadness, forgiveness, and grace all around. I am willing to compromise my beliefs for something greater. Death and renewal eat away at me. My strength and independence is stripped off my body. My anger is uncontrollable. The situation is domineering, and threatening. My feelings are downplayed and over looked. I am lost, blurred as I struggle against deceit, falsehood, and jealousy.

[Deeno02]

I dont know buterfly. I dont sleep well and in the off chance i do, i dont remember. Mostly i wake up thinking we are still together, then reality hits... .:'(

[Nicolai]

In the begining I used to have over-romantic dreams of her and me. Saying "I love you" to each other, then waking up, realising that she hadn't behaved like that for years. And also being hit hard by the fact that she left me. But I changed that. I made a really scary movie about BPD. Putting on a frightening soundtrack. Adding pictures of her in black and white. And putting in text to describe episodes where I was mistreated. When I was done, I watched it everyday before going to bed. Now I have nightmares where she assaults me, or stabs me to death. Ironically I think those dreams are better! Wakes up terrified, and glad she is not there. All do it has made me genuinely afraid of her as a person. Like I am now looking at her as a monster, rather then my sweet love!

[Fluff]

I don't remember my dreams, but once, in the beginning of our relationship I did. It's funny how your subconscious is one step ahead of your retarded consciousness. Before she had ever started talking about suicide and i had entered the savior role, I dreamed me and her were on campus out in space, some sort of space university. A giant space wave of some sort were coming for us and I called out to her to come quickly, but she didn't understand. The day after I told her that if a giant space wave ever comes for her she should listen to me, I know what to do.