I Broke NC

[Before you can make things better, you have to stop making them worse...]

Ugh. I am not as far out as you. I've been waking up at 2am or so (and 4 and 6). At 2:30 I sent him an email telling him I missed him. He has not responded. Don't know why I thought he would, when I of course gave me the courtesy of responding to his emails, texts and calls when he walked out on me. Hurts like hell, don't it?

Try to hang in there, WhyMe. And it ain't easy, but be strong and try not to contact him with "I miss you" messages. If our goal is to disengage, such messages can't help our situations. It's not easy!

Meanwhile, has he responded? How are you doing today?

[Kenneth]

Ugh. I am not as far out as you. I've been waking up at 2am or so (and 4 and 6). At 2:30 I sent him an email telling him I missed him. He has not responded. Don't know why I thought he would, when I of course gave me the courtesy of responding to his emails, texts and calls when he walked out on me. Hurts like hell, don't it?

Try to hang in there, WhyMe. And it ain't easy, but be strong and try not to contact him with "I miss you" messages. If our goal is to disengage, such messages can't help our situations. It's not easy!

Meanwhile, has he responded? How are you doing today?

[WhyMe?]

Ugh. I am not as far out as you. I've been waking up at 2am or so (and 4 and 6). At 2:30 I sent him an email telling him I missed him. He has not responded. Don't know why I thought he would, when I of course gave me the courtesy of responding to his emails, texts and calls when he walked out on me. Hurts like hell, don't it?

Try to hang in there, WhyMe. And it ain't easy, but be strong and try not to contact him with "I miss you" messages. If our goal is to disengage, such messages can't help our situations. It's not easy!

Meanwhile, has he responded? How are you doing today?

I had a horrible day (I posted in Level 6 "Continued support" thread and I had another post called Help! probably in Undecided this morning - I was trying NOT to recontact him). He didn't respond to the email but he did to another text later. I am really not sure where I fit in the disengaging role at the moment, I still fluctuate. I have done so much thinking (because with him at a distance, I actually CAN think) that I am now seeing my own role in the madness, and how that affected him at times, and yes, with that is no F, little G and probably mostly O

I am feeling more at peace tonight though, for some odd reason. Hope your day was ok.  x

[Kenneth]

I am feeling more at peace tonight though, for some odd reason. Hope your day was ok. 

Glad you're feeling better this evening. Maybe we just get too exhausted from all this and, as a result, we begin to come to our senses.

My day was okay: keeping busy!

Thanks for checking in!

[WhyMe?]

    x

[NHBeachBum]

Whyme/Kenneth,

I remember when I was first going through the break up phase wanting to write my exBPDgf or text her. What seemed to work for me was writing it down on paper - then I threw it out. It was out of my head, I felt better, & because I trashed it there was no damage done. I never wrote it down electronically - it would be too tempting to e-mail.  

Hope today is better for you than yesterday. Stay strong.

-NHBB