A good day

[theboro504]

My former fiance, who was scheduled to originally be married this coming sunday, to me, who was having sex and doing hard drugs at 15, married at 19, who had multiple affairs in her 23 year marriage, then shortly after a divorce took up with another married man, then shortly after him took up with me, is now officially on match.com. I get these nudgings at times to look at things, so I made a fony account on there and searched age range 48 to 48 within 10 miles of her zip code and sorted the list on newest members first, and guess who is there.

I am raising my BPD estimation from 80 to 90% I think.

oh, and her profile picture, I took it at christmas and she has her engagement ring on... .  

nice huh?

Why a good day? Because I refuse to cycle around again in sickness and my friend continues to hop from new toy to new toy. Sometimes, a good lesson can come from a bad example.

I urge you all, see the truth, the facts... .   not what you FEEL... .   freedom is in the facts.

[lockedout]

Amen to that, brother. Mine is on POF.com. I'm on there too but my picture isn't. I'm separated and haven't done anything toward a divorce for various reasons, none of which include hopes for reconciliation. It was an added bonus to see her on there - I'm hoping she'll meet someone that will be the next knight in shining armor to take the attention off me and make for a more peaceful divorce.

[theboro504]

I wouldn't go on a date with a gun to my head right now and don't know if I ever will. My heart and my soul are ripped to shreds. I am numb.

[lockedout]

Give it time. That's a hard point in a relationship to break up. Work on healing yourself. I think the only reason I can date is that things were bad for a very long time; we separated for all intents and purposes early last year. I just took a year to move out. I just had an angry roommate who had a hard time getting rid of me.