Back from Army basic training

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i was on this site 8 months agos same board contacted my ex and we got back together rocky 4 months but we got engaged to be married . when we was broken up i joined the Army she found out day one of us reconnecting. she cried for me when i left sent me letter then they stopped. i came back for her and she says i dont want you no more i moved on blamed me for abandoning her and cursed me out ... . im a fool for going back to her but i felt she was different she apologized for all her actions now im worst then i was before have to leave my home to ft knox in 4 days forever to say goodbye to her the worst part she told me she never loved it was all a lie im so confused help

[freshlySane]

i was on this site 8 months agos same board contacted my ex and we got back together rocky 4 months but we got engaged to be married . when we was broken up i joined the Army she found out day one of us reconnecting. she cried for me when i left sent me letter then they stopped. i came back for her and she says i dont want you no more i moved on blamed me for abandoning her and cursed me out ... . im a fool for going back to her but i felt she was different she apologized for all her actions now im worst then i was before have to leave my home to ft knox in 4 days forever to say goodbye to her the worst part she told me she never loved it was all a lie im so confused help

[ucmeicu2]

im a fool for going back to her but i felt she was different she apologized for all her actions now im worst then i was before

i've been told/seen it written that it hurts worse each time we recycle ~ i think honestly that is one of the scariest things holding me back from recycling with my xBPDgf.   what can you think of to do, to put into place, to protect yourself, when she comes back in the future for another go round?

and, on the up side, the army will keep you plenty busy.     if you feel like sharing, what's your MOS?

icu2

[freshlySane]

im a fool for going back to her but i felt she was different she apologized for all her actions now im worst then i was before

i've been told/seen it written that it hurts worse each time we recycle ~ i think honestly that is one of the scariest things holding me back from recycling with my xBPDgf.   what can you think of to do, to put into place, to protect yourself, when she comes back in the future for another go round?

and, on the up side, the army will keep you plenty busy.     if you feel like sharing, what's your MOS?

icu2

12 bravo Combat Engineer ... . i dont know i still love her i sickly owuld welcome her back its been the fourth time

[Lao Tzu]

Dear freshly,

     I hear you, man.  It's a confusing twist of anger, love, sex, jealousy, etc. and it trulys stinks in a big way.  There is good news too, however.  You need to read and start to understand the stuff on this website and others.  You can and will heal from this and like a broken bone is stronger than it was originally, you will be a stronger man for what you've gone through.  Right now, don't try to be tough (it would be like trying to walk on a frshly broken bone).  Accept that you're going to be a bit weak for a while and start the healing process by reading and asking questions here.  You have hundreds of people here who will help you.

LT

[ucmeicu2]

12 bravo Combat Engineer ... . i don't know i still love her i sickly would welcome her back its been the fourth time

firstly, thank you for your service!  Hi!   i'm a vet myself.

secondly, the bad news is you're in pain but the good news is you've identified, and admitted to, the problem (that's always the 1st step).  so it can only be "up" from here.

i've only recently, since finding these boards, started to feel a true tipping of the scales back in favor of my sanity. 

icu2