So, my ex-boyfriend is a psychopath. No doubt about it. I took the Hare's Psychopathy test for him and was generous... . and he still made a 30, which is more common of the more intelligent psychopaths that prey on people socially and through smarter schemes, than those that are murders/serial killers/rapists/embezzlers, etc. that get caught. I got out of the abuse and haze he had me in almost two years ago (this coming July).
The guy I suspected of having BPD that used me for emotional support, stringing me along and telling me he couldn't be with me because of intimacy issues from November 2013 - February 2014, I always suspected of maybe having Anti-Social Personality Disorder - or psychopathy - like my ex-boyfriend. They were different, but had a lot of the same characteristics. This recent one was much better at wearing the mask and playing my emotions like a fiddle, but he never wanted to get close in person.
I had been doing good, but struggling recently with seeing him several times by chance around campus and it was bringing up old hurt and feelings, especially thinking of him with another girl, as I had longed to be in her spot for so long. He dangled getting closer to him like a carrot in front of me.
Long story short, I ran across this song - which I have downloaded online and attached a link to near the bottom - which he recorded in the last few years. He loves to rap and he comes from a wealthy-enough family to do so and even hangs with big-name rappers and music artists. I think this song is from 2010.
Anyways, LISTEN to the LYRICS. They WILL disturb you. It doesn't sound like Borderline Personality Disorder. It sounds - to me - much like the ramblings of a psychopath with not a care in the world. This song gives me chills because it could be my psychopath ex-boyfriend's theme song. The guy I fell for and thought was Borderline is not the one you hear in the song... . this sounds like his true persona.
Thoughts? I remember him saying his ex's mom and aunt warned him that his ex-girlfriend was psycho. I'm beginning to think that he's projecting that onto her and his mom and aunt warned her... . in reality. Let's face it, the song says it ALL!
www.kiwi6.com/file/lz5gzjdax9
