Hi,
BreatheDeep,
I'm glad to see you're trying out the manual. There is some good stuff in there. We have a clickable outline over in the right-hand margin of this board to make it a little more accessible. While the 21 steps are not necessarily linear, members here will be moving through the three main stages of
Remembering, Mourning, and Healing.
The manual does begin with a section on
Safety First. It is hard to resolve old childhood issues while we are in the midst of a current crisis such as suicidal ideation or domestic violence. The risk assessment questions are there to help us identify areas we need to stabilize first before doing the difficult work of recovery. I think there are also tips on various ways to do that and find support.
Were you able to finish reading through the whole chapter? Toward the end, it does say this: "It is not necessary to fully resolve these problems--that will come as you work through recovery--but successful recovery depends on your taking steps to bring some order to your life." If you are comfortable letting us know which areas you may need support to work on first before delving into your childhood abuse recovery, we may be able to point you toward some resources. Do you currently have a therapist?
Wishing you peace,
PF
P.S. Yes, there are currently four [L5] boards here at bpdfamily. Look for the one that starts with "Coping and Healing."