So I have been a long time member to this site. bpdfamily has saved me in so many ways I couldn't even begin to tell you. And honestly that's all because of you all. I created another username for this post and this post only. I pray it doesn't get removed because this was a HUGE part of my recovery. Here it goes.
My self esteem was crushed. My BPDexgf made me feel absolutely terrible. She verbally and emotionally abused me every single day. She would make feel so inadequate I was afraid to do anything. The break up left me feeling even worse. I wasn't good enough. I felt pathetic and lonely and unlovable.
But through the help with this site and my friends and family I rebuilt myself. I worked with a therapist and I got my diet in order and started working out. See, I was only born with one arm. Naturally this left me with a slightly damaged self esteem.
Through the gym I was able to find strength that I never knew existed. Every time I thought of my ex I went to the gym. I took all my anger and frustrations out in the gym. I worked on myself from the ground up and completely rebuilt myself. And this is what I came up with. I truly hope you find this inspiring and motivating to help you stay strong and do what YOU need to do for YOU.
Because of all the pain and suffering I went through I became a better man. I'm no longer afraid to live. I'm ready to embrace life again.
Here is a video that I made
www.youtu.be/40wR5_gussMand if you want to learn more go to facebook.com/julianwlucas
In no way am I fishing for followers! I just wanted to share with all of you that there is light at the end of the tunnel. You just have to keep moving forward to reach it.