Sometimes it feels like this is more than we can bare. I've felt that way myself and still battle those demons.
YOU ARE NOT "I feel totally worthless, sub human and a failure."
BUT YOU ARE BEING MADE TO FEEL THIS WAY ABOUT YOURSELF AND IT IS NOT TRUE. I promise you that. I felt exactly the same as you do and it will get better I promise. But you have to endure. There is strength in the struggle. Learn to tap into that (negative) energy and redirect it for your good. For the good of you. It will help you to keep on keepin' on. Believe in that much.
Welcome change. Embrace it and let the tension out of your hands and your neck by releasing your muscles and you will see where (we) you have to learn to r.e.l.a.x. It ain't ease, but nothing worth it is. And you're worth it and you know it. Now start to believe it!
"she is hurting too but will never show you that side."
guy4caligirl:
I agree. I see it like this... .she had to have another person to take away the pain she was about to endure from the loss of our relationship. We all know jumping ships is only a way to have somebody new to distract you from the pain you would have if faced with yourself. That's why they "need" a replacement. Because when faced with that mirror of self for disordered individuals, it's too painful to look.
I realize it is not personal their leaving us for someone new. I just though that was something we did back in high school. At 40+ years old, as adults, I didn't think I would have to concern myself with that fear. I guess that's the problem, I just didn't think.
"Everyday is a winding road - Sheryl Crow"
Continued... .
Sometimes it feels like this is more than we can bare. I've felt that way myself and still battle those demons.
YOU ARE NOT "I feel totally worthless, sub human and a failure."
BUT YOU ARE BEING MADE TO FEEL THIS WAY ABOUT YOURSELF AND IT IS NOT TRUE. I promise you that. I felt exactly the same as you do and it will get better I promise. But you have to endure. There is strength in the struggle. Learn to tap into that (negative) energy and redirect it for your good. For the good of you. It will help you to keep on keepin' on. Believe in that much.
Welcome change. Embrace it and let the tension out of your hands and your neck by releasing your muscles and you will see where (we) you have to learn to r.e.l.a.x. It ain't easy, but nothing truly worth it is. You are worth it and you know it. Now start to believe it!
"she is hurting too but will never show you that side."
guy4caligirl:
I agree. I see it like this... .she had to have another person to take away the pain she was about to endure from the loss of our relationship. We all know jumping ships is only a way to have somebody new to distract you from the pain you would have if faced with yourself. That's why they "need" a replacement. Because when faced with that mirror of self for all disordered individuals, it's too painful to look. That's why we suffer so much... .they leave us to face ourselves. We don't want to accept that one little fact.
If you really want to bleed the truth listen to Blues Traveler Hook. If you watch the video it's a guy on a sofa in a dingy apartment. He's just focused on the TV (I don't own one and I will not be buying one either - TV melts the mind worse than drugs and it morally corrupts and has ensured the almost certain death of human empathy. It's my opinion.) He's medicating his broken heart by watching TV and picking the crust out of his toes or the like. There is an open box of tissues on the bed, but he thinks he's making progress by having made the effort to land on the couch. He's watching the video of the song itself. So you are watching him watching the video of the song... .in essence you are looking at yourself. He notices (his) girl in the video being hit on in a club. Meaning she's just going on with life like nothing even happened, while he's at home suffering for nothing. You might go so far to say he is in fact sort of a loser because he's not doing anything CONSTRUCTIVE. He's just wasting away over a woman that doesn't even know how to care. Not because she doesn't want to... .she simply doesn't even realize what she is doing. She indicates this by looking (directly) back at the guy watching the video... .that being
you... .and she just shrugs her shoulders as if to say "oh well." If we learn anything from our BPD loved ones, if we learn only one thing, it's to stop caring so much for someone that doesn't even know how to care for you. They can't care for us. They don't even know what caring for someone is.
I believe the sooner we get over ourselves the better life will become. Let go... .perhaps of
everything.
