break through

[ManyPieces]

yesterday I was sitting at my desk at work, distraught over everything that has happened and all the pain I am in and i decided out of no where that I choose happiness. I choose Me, the girl who used to be laughing all the time and loved life. I still don't know 100% if my ex is BPD but I do know his behavior resembles what everyone discusses on this board. I have decided that I can't let a person run my life and bring me such pain and misery. I may still have my sad days but I will stick to this and my mantra will be "i choose happiness"

I just had to document this somewhere so I can go back and re read it on my bad days.

That is all

[zipline]

yesterday I was sitting at my desk at work, distraught over everything that has happened and all the pain I am in and i decided out of no where that I choose happiness. I choose Me, the girl who used to be laughing all the time and loved life. I still don't know 100% if my ex is BPD but I do know his behavior resembles what everyone discusses on this board. I have decided that I can't let a person run my life and bring me such pain and misery. I may still have my sad days but I will stick to this and my mantra will be "i choose happiness"

I just had to document this somewhere so I can go back and re read it on my bad days.

That is all

I like this. I will follow your lead and choose happiness today, as well. I also choose direct my energy to myself with love, and opt not to give that energy to her.

[Yolanda123]

 

Good for you!

I am actually having a bad day today and just reading your post helped - you're absolutely right - why make ourselves miserable over someone who's simply not worth it 

[shattered1]

Thanks I need this too... 6 weeks of being totally ignored... my world blown apart... .I have to move forward. ... I just can't stop thinking of him... I feel limerant ... .I just want to feel happy... .what a rollar coaster... .

[ManyPieces]

Thanks I need this too... 6 weeks of being totally ignored... my world blown apart... .I have to move forward. ... I just can't stop thinking of him... I feel limerant ... .I just want to feel happy... .what a rollar coaster... .

Yea don't worry me too, also I have been in that position and he always came back. This time I think it's different but don't think he's gone forever. I always think oh it's the last time and my

Mom will respond with "you always say that" two years of that. Ruined my life and changed who I am

Can you briefly tell me your story? Sometimes it helps hearing other stories

[UserName69]

My exBPD uses to treat me like crap. She drove me crazy with the push pull behavior, whenever we had a fight or a breakup she pointed her finger at me. She used to perform an entire drama act and try to get all her friends on her side, to feel sorry for her and paint me black. Long story short I met an another girl who's an angel compared to my worthless exBPD, she's my girlfriend now. Whenever I think back about the rs I had with my exBPD it only makes me hate her. I never met such an idiot in my life, I can't believe I used to love and sleep with her.

There are tons of single guy's who're willing to date you, who're way better than your exBPD. Why spend energy on someone who doesn't even know how to love someone. Some people simply can't be loved or respected. I've blocked her completely from my life, I got rid of everything that reminded me of her, I decided to move on. There is no need for me to care about her she's dead to me.