So flip-flop.
Yes, these relationships are full of flip-flop. Just think Skyglass, this will be your first July 4th post flip-flop, an opportunity to enjoy some serenity with the bombs bursting in air. As significant dates come and go in our detachment, the first time through can be emotional, depending on what we make it mean, and reading your post, 2 of the 3 July 4ths were negative, so let's say there's a 66% chance this one would have been, and instead you have a 100% chance of it being awesome or terrible, because you are now in control, in a flip-flop free zone, yes?
Flashback: years ago, when I was still immersed in my relationship and drowning, my ex needed to guzzle bloody Mary's in a restaurant, it was "my fault" she had to get drunk you see, and then she puked all over the inside of my car, fireworks exploding overhead. And what did I do? Calmly started planning how to clean it up the next day. Why oh why we may ask... .
