He always wants what he thinks he can't have, or he'll do the exact opposite of something I've nicely asked of him. If I ask him anything, it makes him feel "controlled" It's almost like they do things in reverse, or that their thinking is basically backwards. BPDh never wanted what he had but he'd chase after what he thought he didn't have control of. It's such a sad, dysfunctional way to live their life.
I think this is true because we meet at a party and I didn't like him. He's shoes was wrinkles like he wear it to much. Then he tell a friend he like me and chase me for about 3 month. He had on better shoes then, better cloths but needed a haircut. I pay for a haircut for him. Then after that he kept himself up a little better so I start to like him. He's a good cook and cooked for me a lot. I start to like him more then we made love and I fell in love. He was good to me at the beginning then after he change but idk how to describe him change. It was easy for me to start to like him more and more but in the back of my mind I never seen a future with him it was the way he was acting. Like he had another woman or women that's how I was feeling. But doubted my intuitions.
I guess just be happy he's gone?
I'm not happy at all. My friend tel me it all will get better but when? It hurt me so much. is like one day he my man and the next day is like he don't know me. I see him one time. I think he takes a different way to travel around now because first time I use to see him everyday every wear. Now I don't see or hear from him at all. I feel like he hate me or something and I didn't do nothing but the best for him. But my heart and my head hurt so much.