Burton2070,
You've been here a short time with only 11 post so hear me when I say that you've ONLY stumbled on your journey. Shocker ... .WE all have. SOO like Lucky Jim says go easy on yourself. If you look over your shoulder you'll see the group with our hands out to you helping you up. We're going to dust you off and straighten you up. NOW the tough choice is up to you ... .you can continue down the path that your on and see how that continues to work out for you. You can choose the path to the right and see where that leads you or you can sit back down & do nothing. The choice has been and will always be YOURS to make!
With that said, take a deep breath and slowly let it out. As Lucky Jim points out she's probably going to rage at you because YOU have put the power pack with her. SO you need to find the strength to NOT reply or answer her and in fact if you truly want to go NC do the following.
1. Block her number so you DO NOT receive her calls or text.
2. DELETE her phone number so you don't text or call her in a future moment of weakness.
3. Block her from your FB.
4. LOCK down your FB account so that she can not follow you or know what is going on with you.
5. Ask your friends NOT so share your info to anyone without calling you first.
Now that being said ... .you need to find things to occupy your mind, body & time. Get out for a walk, ride a bike, run or go to the gym. This will reduce your stress hormones and get the good ones throughout your body. Be sure you're eating right because nothing good comes from junk food including your poo. That is suppose to give you a sense of humor which you probably lost. So go to a comedy show with some friends or watch the comedy channel with a friend or two. Finally be sure you're getting the proper sleep that I'm sure you are NOT getting. Melatonin should be able to help with that & you can find it in the vitamin isle at your local grocery store.
then you need to start working on the inside of Burton2070. Find a good therapist to help you sort through your thoughts, emotions, frustrations. This is key as anyone on the other side will testify too. You have to find out why you are the NON that you are and why you're attached to someone who has a Cluster B Mental Illness of BPD.
You can't worry about her, who she is seeing, "your replacement" or what she's doing or saying. Nothing good will come from this as you've come to learn. AS far as "your replacement", this isn't about them or you, this is about someone who you fell for that is mentally / behaviorally ill. They're broken and nothing you, me or the group can do to fix it. SO work on yourself! THIS IS ABOUT YOU!
I've included a couple of video's for you ... .
Watch this one every morning to start your day ... ."Even the most confident and motivated people will need a helping hand at some point in their life."
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_ZQeMv5PXhg"The most importantly life lesson I learned is this, sometimes people leave, sometime unexpectedly, take a deep breath, morn the loss and start living again".
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BsIYlgrov3kJ