I guess it's time...

[Bushido]

Well... .
I did write a few posts a few months back.
Perhaps i should read them before i go on cos
I am not the same person i was back then...
... Even just a few months but i sure had to adapt fast.
I played my part in this BPD game of hers
But now it's just a few things left to fight over.
If only the new guy could make her just stop trying to pick a fight with me over just anything.
Well... .I just wonder where to begin... .
18 years of this rollercoaster... .
And here i am... . a new beginning

[Mutt]

Hi Bushido,



Welcome back. Anywhere is a good starting point. What's left to fight over your ex?

[Want2know]

And here i am... . a new beginning

A new beginning!  Those words sound sweet!

What is the first thing you want to do for yourself, putting aside your ex and whatever b.s. she's involved in?

[Bushido]

well ... .i guess it´s going take some time to unwind from this whole thing.
And i feel like i´m rebooting in so many ways.
But this isn´t over yet...
Finishing the divorce. . . the kids. . . and just this whole turn around.
I feel like talking about it with you guys... .
But i have a hard time to put it into words. . let alone where to begin.
 

[Bushido]

And here i am... . a new beginning

A new beginning!  Those words sound sweet!
What is the first thing you want to do for yourself, putting aside your ex and whatever b.s. she's involved in?

that´s the thing. . . i am still in recovery mode after the ruins she left when she walked out
and all our finance just collapsed...
i don´t know how i did it... .beside being at work 24/7 last summer!
and then it´s all the emotional part of this abandonment... .that was no joke ether...

But here i am ... . 
just working on how and where to begin...

[VitaminC]

I feel like talking about it with you guys... .
But i have a hard time to put it into words. . let alone where to begin.
 

Talking is good!

How about beginning with how you feel right now? Are you sad? Anxious? Relieved? Tired? Confused? Relaxing?

Have you moved? How are the kids doing? Have you got friends or family you can talk to and get different kinds of support from?

[Bushido]

What's left to fight over your ex?

well... .as you know... .BPDs don´t need much to start a fight...
just the other day i went to give my daughter her schoolbook...
and miss ex went into fight mode over a text i didn´t reply...

[Bushido]

How about beginning with how you feel right now? Are you sad? Anxious? Relieved? Tired? Confused? Relaxing?

I feel a bit blank... i think
I´ve been thru so many and so much emotions that . . . i don´t know. . . time works with me i guess.
one day at a time... .just one day at a time...

Have you moved?

No... i´m keeping the apartment... .but we are heading in a split share ... .he who has the kids... .stays in the apartment . 
 agreement  until new year when she gets an a apartment ( in her parents house btw )
Bottom line... .this is their home... .school is close by and this is best for them.

How are the kids doing?

well ... .school called in social service since they worrie about two of my kids.

Have you got friends or family you can talk to and get different kinds of support from?

yes... i do

[Bushido]

putting aside your ex and whatever b.s. she's involved in?

and yes ... .her b.s is her own... .
she has 4 kids and the new bf lives 8 hours away.
i don´t care what she does in her own time...
she can´t escape reality forever . . .
What she plans to do ... .we will see