I think I did it this time.

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If you guys have been following me you have heard about my ex. I think I did it this time. I couldn't stop my urge to contact her. She has threaten a restraining order on me before. Disclosure this threat is really unwarranted. Anyways. I sent her an email. I sent copies of 14 of the 33 letters she gave me to remind her of what we had. She wrote these laters during the week that we broke up. I found out when trying to send the email she blocked 3 of my emails and yes I used one of my others to contact her. This is where I feel I could be in trouble. I can put an attachment of the letter I sent her so you guys and understand why this has been so hard. I really need to stop contacting her. This time I felt if she saw her own words and handwriting it could spark her memory. That's either going to happen or she will get really pissed and this could be bad for me. I need to stop this for my own safety. I'm going to start seeing a therapist soon because I know this unhealthy and I don't want to jeopardize my career as a public educator. Can you guys give me advice. I want her back so much. To I just get help for myself, take care of myself (I am) and just let time go by and see if she contacts me. HELP PLEASE!

BTW idk how to do attachments on here. Thanks

[Willis002]

If you guys have been following me you have heard about my ex. I think I did it this time. I couldn't stop my urge to contact her. She has threaten a restraining order on me before. Disclosure this threat is really unwarranted. Anyways. I sent her an email. I sent copies of 14 of the 33 letters she gave me to remind her of what we had. She wrote these laters during the week that we broke up. I found out when trying to send the email she blocked 3 of my emails and yes I used one of my others to contact her. This is where I feel I could be in trouble. I can put an attachment of the letter I sent her so you guys and understand why this has been so hard. I really need to stop contacting her. This time I felt if she saw her own words and handwriting it could spark her memory. That's either going to happen or she will get really pissed and this could be bad for me. I need to stop this for my own safety. I'm going to start seeing a therapist soon because I know this unhealthy and I don't want to jeopardize my career as a public educator. Can you guys give me advice. I want her back so much. To I just get help for myself, take care of myself (I am) and just let time go by and see if she contacts me. HELP PLEASE!

BTW idk how to do attachments on here. Thanks

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First advice:  Do not post the letters here.  Not only is it against policy to provide identifying information, you could also get in big trouble for violating her privacy rights.

[Willis002]

Thank you! I didn't know that! You guys are an amazing support system. I don't want to violate the rules.

[WillG]

If you guys have been following me you have heard about my ex. I think I did it this time. I couldn't stop my urge to contact her. She has threaten a restraining order on me before. Disclosure this threat is really unwarranted. Anyways. I sent her an email. I sent copies of 14 of the 33 letters she gave me to remind her of what we had. She wrote these laters during the week that we broke up. I found out when trying to send the email she blocked 3 of my emails and yes I used one of my others to contact her. This is where I feel I could be in trouble. I can put an attachment of the letter I sent her so you guys and understand why this has been so hard. I really need to stop contacting her. This time I felt if she saw her own words and handwriting it could spark her memory. That's either going to happen or she will get really pissed and this could be bad for me. I need to stop this for my own safety. I'm going to start seeing a therapist soon because I know this unhealthy and I don't want to jeopardize my career as a public educator. Can you guys give me advice. I want her back so much. To I just get help for myself, take care of myself (I am) and just let time go by and see if she contacts me. HELP PLEASE!

BTW idk how to do attachments on here. Thanks

Back off and just go no contact. It's very hard but what will be will be and defo do not screw your career up. We all think one more txt etc will strike a chord but I'm learning it's just gets you nowhere when a person is in a certain state of mind. There may of been times it worked, but it gets to a stage it must hit home this time it's getting you nothing and you're digging a hole.
You can't control a mind and defo not with a person with a illness and within a flash I know the sun can come out and I guess this is what we all hang on to.
If there is a chance she chirps up, you can try the techniques here in ways to talk but she must make the first move. No pressure I guess is the key...
no case is the same though eh.
In my case I'm drained, and after feeling better too.
Good luck

[Willis002]

Thank you. I know I need to go no contact. The last thing I did today was send her flowers. Now I know have to stop for my own safety. It's just been so hard that everything was great and then once I find out she has this disorder she leaves me. She's the one that told me. How messed up is that? I hope someday she dates someone and remember what I did for her. Because she even said it. I treated her like no other and I believe it. Once she meets another guy that treats her bad I bet she runs my way. Idk by then if she will have a chance if she waits to long. And if I have healed from the damage she has caused. I'm willing to give her one last chance. Third strike and she out. Again I will go NC and try to take care of myself. There's no way I can date at this point