Hi kc sunshine,
I'm sorry to hear that you're hurt, do you have an update?
Hi Mutt,
Sadly it didn't work out-- I think she got back together with her last girlfriend. It was a tough set-up-- the girlfriend had just broken up with her because of some difficult push behavior on the part of my BPD ex (my BPD ex had slept with another one of her exes and had also told her that she still loved me). She then started to pull me back in hard (visions of a future together, etc) but then when we were together I think it wasn't that great (we had about 4 days together and I was nervous and a bit clingy-- dang!) and she went back to her ex on the 5th day. Or something like that happened. It's hard to tell.
Anyway, it seems like they are back together (a recycle?) I'm not sure if I was/am:
triangulated?
her true love but both of us not ready?
used until her girlfriend wanted her back?
who she would want if I made better choices
I feel all of those things at different times... .