Today I feel sick...having doubts...what if?

[Freeatlast_1]

 I read on here that sometimes we have manic days, where we feel very secure and powerful. Today is not one of those days. All I have been thinking about today is what if my ex staying years with this rebound? What if this rebound treats  her better than I did? What if I become to my ex what my exes prior to her are to me right now? Which is totally indifferent. I can care less right now about my exes I don't think of them at all, what if I become that way? I really  thought that my ex is my true soulmate and I really saw that I'm going to grow old and gray with her. I'm thinking about the relationship and it was extremely draining, and I was not happy. I used to tell her all the time that I was not happy. But now that I look back and she's with someone else, I wonder if she's thinking of me, I wonder if she's missing me? I wonder if this is The right person for her and I was the wrong person for her? I honestly feel devalued, my self-esteem is going to hit today. I was just fine a few days ago I don't know what happened.

[SuperJew82]

I'm pretty sure your ex is eventually going to make their life similar to what your was. Be thankful you are out of it.

You now have a chance for a better future - before you did not.

You should plan something fun this weekend. Do something to take your mind off of it. It's not a cure, but sometimes a distraction helps me.

[Harley Quinn]

Hi freeatlast_1,

It's been a couple of days since your post and I'm just wondering how your'e doing now on this?  We can take one step forward and two steps back sometimes in this healing process and that's to be expected.  You will hit rough patches.  Sometimes we need to figure out what the underlying feelings are related to and address these things.  Any change?

Love and light x

[tektro_BPD]

I totally feel your pain.  One day I am ok and accepting that moving on is the best thing... .like totally good with it.  Then other days like today I walk around depressed obsessively thinking about her and who she is with.  One thing I am certain of is that if the NC is maintained things will level out and I will reflect on this experience and be thankful I got out of it.