Dear CryWolf,
I'd just like to comment on your question:
Does anyone have any thoughts as to what im possibly going through? Maybe im overthinking.
Yes, we've all been there to varying degrees. Congratulations on moving toward your own path to self-care and self-discovery. It seems that doing so has helped you focus less on your ex and more on YOU, which is the whole point! Like
Sky07 says, just allow yourself some time and space to feel your feelings as they are.
Whether your ex comes back or not is not the point of doing this grief-work. Be kind to yourself, friend.
Keep writing if it helps... .
-Speck