My bpd bf may not be my boyfriend any longer.
It’s been almost a week since I found the escort messages and swinger websites. I set limits on what he must do to stay with me and work on this and he keeps breaking them and testing the boundaries. He’s in therapy but I don’t know if he’s actually telling her everything AND he always arrives late. Today he was 20mins late...he so has a dialectic therapy book to work through but he doesn’t actually do it often enough or practice it.
I am so hurt and I feel like I am punishing him by tracking his location, his accounts, locking his phone and the internet down. AND asking him not to pleasure himself after all the horrible messages he sent to other women and men and lady boys. He really is lost and
PLEASE READed in the head.
I can’t stop but feel like I want to hurt him how he did me. I am desperately trying to get him to realise the damage he has done to this relationship and how unless he owns his mistakes and is truly sorry for them I cannot forgive and move forward.
I am so tired, so paranoid and feel I deserve A LOT better!
Am I losing my mind?
