Work Records & Relationships

[Shannon.from.gro]

I had a job interview yesterday (I am unemployed and live off my husband as a stay-at-home mom, but our marriage is toxic and beyond repair) but I suspect I will not get it. I've applied to the same entity several times and got nowhere. I think I've demonstrated anger in certain social situations in the past where people have formed a negative opinion of me. I get down on myself when I get rejected from a job; I was thinking about suicide yesterday because I know it didn't go well. I have burned bridges or quit jobs without staying long. My resume is full of gaps, my longest job ever has never been more than 3 years, and I barely have enough social connections to foster good references (I am not outgoing unless I'm being passive-aggressively offensive, e.g. critical social media posts, and I don't maintain lasting true friendships.) There is more to the dynamic but that's a start. I'm in individual therapy, DBT group therapy, marriage therapy, and I just started SLAA 12-step for love addiction ( I am suffering limerence for my former individual therapist who eventually dismissed me for that reason.)

Childhood trauma and 1 suicide attempt history

[Mutt]

Hi Shannon.from.gro,

I’m sorry that the interview didn’t go as you expected. You have tenacity if you keep trying - you have that going for you   How are you feeling today? Do you have a pwBPD in your life?