My friend and I had a complicated relationship. He blocked me again.

[ziramone]

(Im new, please excuse any mistakes I’ve made in this post as I’m still trying to learn).
My close friend and I have had our fair share of problems. I won’t get too into it, this is now the fourth time. He cut me off once for like a month and a half and randomly came back because he “kept thinking about me and how i deserve better”. He needed help because he went through something bad and reached out to me.
Anyway, I decided to let him back in my life. We decided to set boundaries and he promised he’d never do it again because it really scared and upset me. He then blocked me again after a minor disagreement. For about a half hour.
A few days ago, he blocked me. He was upset because I didn’t want to talk about my feelings at that moment, and I was busy. He felt I was keeping something from him so I came out and said I have feelings for him. And he cut me off. I just spoke to my therapist and she explained that is common with BPDs. I had pretty much no understanding of it before.  Now everything makes sense. I feel TERRIBLE because if this is the case, I must have pushed him too far? I still have a lot to learn but I do feel a little better now that I know this happens sometimes. I tried apologizing and telling him I had no idea that this is common and I didn’t take into account how he felt. I told him i hope he does whatever is best for him. I feel terrible. I miss him. Does he hate me, Will he come back? Did I make a mistake telling him the truth about my feelings, and will that push him away forever?

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[pursuingJoy]

Hi ziramone! I know you posted this a few days ago. Any new developments?

It really helps to learn about BPD and what drives their urge to push/pull in relationships. We've got a few helpful threads on this site, here's one:
https://bpdfamily.com/message_board/index.php?topic=99725.0

Sustaining a relationship with a pwBPD takes work. We all make mistakes, and some of this is just counter intuitive. Don't be too hard on yourself. What are you hoping for?