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« on: August 16, 2014, 05:18:07 PM »

So what were your most irrational demands or requests from your BPD?

As I get the I'm sorry pleas -I was wrong, I need help, I love you etc (please come back so I can feel better again and start the cycle all over) I feel strong but it doesn't hurt to remind myself of some of these things. He made some absurd demands, I would politely tell him that I was sorry but I was unable to do that, this etc which usually triggered an episode. I'm sure many many can relate.

Some are so ridiculous they make me laugh and I'm sure others have way better!

My favorites:

"You can't smile at other men when you are interacting with them or be nice( ie by saying thank you while smiling at a store clerk, waiter anyone) because they will think you want to have sex with them... ."

"You're not aloud to enjoy time or have fun with anyone else(friends family included) but me. "

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"I don't want you to work with men ever" - which I am an independent contractor and company working in sound recording. Its completely male dominated, my employees and almost all my contractors are male? Lol

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« Reply #1 on: August 16, 2014, 05:45:01 PM »

"When I talk to you, don't listen to the words I use, listen to what I'm *really* saying".

Perhaps he should have come with a free crystal ball.
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« Reply #2 on: August 16, 2014, 05:52:36 PM »

My was that I should never masturbate (for the record I wan't anyway).  She claimed that is was a waste of sex that could be had with her.  She found a "Christian" sex website to support her position.  I told her that it was my penis not hers.  She never really accepted that.  It is also worth noting that she could masturbate whenever she wanted, which was quiet often.  She had a locked box of sex toys that she thought were hidden.  She had one with a battery powered motor that she wore out in only a few weeks.

The "Christian" sex website was quiet a trip.  I guess it is okay to talk about f**king with perfect strangers as long as there are crosses decorating the border of the website.
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« Reply #3 on: August 16, 2014, 06:01:49 PM »

"Of course i told you that you could go but i was letting you go expecting that you would figure out that it didnt make sense for you to go and declining at last second" Dont remember exactly the context that led to this but she became angry at me when i went out to some place that she didnt want me although i dont have mind reading capacities to know that when she says its ok to go... .
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« Reply #4 on: August 16, 2014, 06:06:39 PM »

The day she left me she sent me a text... ."I demand a grand gesture of love, or I f*ing walk!".

My reply: "Is the intense suffering not a grand enough gesture?"

Haven't heard a word from her since.
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« Reply #5 on: August 16, 2014, 06:07:42 PM »

She also did the same to me Tired of it all! She said i shouldnt watch porn and masturbate with it because it messed with her as she would think of me being unfaithful with her because i would be enjoying other women (told me if i did this to make secret of it and not tell her) . Yet, she watched porn, masturbated, also frequently and even was being unfaithful and doing webcam sex and sexphone with other men... .
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« Reply #6 on: August 16, 2014, 06:22:04 PM »

Another one:

She demanded that i fully forgive her. Because, the fact that i was disturbed and a bit distant after her first betrayal wasnt normal to her. Then i told her i would fight those bad feelings and be back as before and she said she was hurt and demanded that i would fight for her and prove my love to her (wth, i was betrayed forgave her and she was the one hurt and kept demanding things?).
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« Reply #7 on: August 16, 2014, 06:34:34 PM »

Another one:

She demanded that i fully forgive her. Because, the fact that i was disturbed and a bit distant after her first betrayal wasnt normal to her. Then i told her i would fight those bad feelings and be back as before and she said she was hurt and demanded that i would fight for her and prove my love to her (wth, i was betrayed forgave her and she was the one hurt and kept demanding things?).

After mine cheated on me, she said almost exactly the same thing. She was the one out getting stuffed while going to relationship counseling with me (which i paid for) to try and work out our problems... .So she cheats (with two people: one she referred to as Adonis who was apparently in her art class with her, and a whore that's well known for being as such as she cheats on her husband literally every chance she gets), and i forgive her. However, she has the audacity to tell me "Its your fault because you always push me away." Then she wanted me to explain to all of her friends that I made her do it basically... .I kinda felt like she might want to apologize to my friends for them having to listen to me cry for two weeks, but whatever i guess.
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« Reply #8 on: August 16, 2014, 07:19:51 PM »

That I be friends with a guy I later discovered she was having an emotional affair with
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« Reply #9 on: August 16, 2014, 07:31:49 PM »

That I be friends with a guy I later discovered she was having an emotional affair with

In my case, she demanded that i didnt contact the guy with who she was cheating me with. He didnt knew that we were in a relationship and she had a parallel relationship with him. I hope she keeps thinking that way Smiling (click to insert in post)

Later on, she cheated both of us with a third one. Both of us walked away after we got in contact and exchanged stories without her knowing of course. Now we are friends and she doesnt even have a clue that its the support we give each other that is keeping us away from her. She thinks we keep the hate for each other that she implanted in us.
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« Reply #10 on: August 16, 2014, 07:36:28 PM »

I was in trouble for moving to a new apartment building that doesn't allow pets because she "wanted/wants a puppy."  This was a recurring issue, and continued even after the final break-up initiated by her. 
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« Reply #11 on: August 16, 2014, 08:28:12 PM »

She expected me to never be physically attracted to another woman. More of an unsaid demand. We couldn't watch movies without her freaking out and such. Man, that messed me up for about ten lifetimes. And no, I didn't go around saying stuff about how I wanted other women. I just admitted the truth when asked. She also freaked out over me dreaming about sleeping with another woman... .Brought it up for twelve years... .
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« Reply #12 on: August 16, 2014, 11:23:45 PM »

My was that I should never masturbate (for the record I wan't anyway).  She claimed that is was a waste of sex that could be had with her.  She found a "Christian" sex website to support her position.  I told her that it was my penis not hers.  She never really accepted that.  It is also worth noting that she could masturbate whenever she wanted, which was quiet often.  She had a locked box of sex toys that she thought were hidden.  She had one with a battery powered motor that she wore out in only a few weeks.

The "Christian" sex website was quiet a trip.  I guess it is okay to talk about f**king with perfect strangers as long as there are crosses decorating the border of the website.

HAHA!  Wow, dude!  I got the same one!  One morning I was getting out of the shower before work, when I opened it with a towel around my waist she was standing there, crying and started raging at me, ":)ONT YOU EVER DO THAT IN MY HOUSE!".  I was completely confused and taken off guard.  I said, ":)o what?"  She said, " I KNOW YOU WERE MASTURBATING IN THERE".  I wasnt.  At all.  I was taking a shower.  I told her she was crazy.  She was shaking.  I asked her why she thought I was masturbating?  She said she was looking under the door and saw my feet moving (which of course, automatically means masturbation   ).  I told her she was crazy and I threw on my clothes and left for work as fast as I could.  She called me telling me she was sorry and that she was going to seek therapy.  Like a sucker, I came back.

Later, after she threw me out for the last time and we were attempting to reconcile with couples counseling, I told her I found a counselor, the first thing she said was, "Im going to tell him you masturbate".  I was like wow... .well sign me up then.   We never made it to counseling, she was done shortly after that.

Of course Im sad shes gone, but Im not gonna lie, its nice going to the bathroom without worrying about eyes under the door.
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« Reply #13 on: August 17, 2014, 02:09:28 AM »

Crazy people are such a trip!

Mine demanded (after he was caught cheating and people were telling me to divorce him) that I needed to stand by my man and defend his behavior to everyone.

Excuse me?



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« Reply #14 on: August 17, 2014, 02:20:56 AM »



Of course Im sad shes gone, but Im not gonna lie, its nice going to the bathroom without worrying about eyes under the door.

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« Reply #15 on: August 17, 2014, 04:24:39 AM »

Love.

To love her when she had such a distorted view of what love is. 
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« Reply #16 on: August 17, 2014, 04:41:34 AM »

To not tell anyone about our relationship. What is wrong with her?
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« Reply #17 on: August 17, 2014, 07:31:33 AM »

She expected me to never be physically attracted to another woman. More of an unsaid demand. We couldn't watch movies without her freaking out and such. Man, that messed me up for about ten lifetimes. And no, I didn't go around saying stuff about how I wanted other women. I just admitted the truth when asked. She also freaked out over me dreaming about sleeping with another woman... .Brought it up for twelve years... .

I relate to that. Even with friends. I was afraid to talk with the wife of my best friend since afterwards I was expecting a rage episode.
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« Reply #18 on: August 17, 2014, 12:45:06 PM »

Crazy people are such a trip!

Mine demanded (after he was caught cheating and people were telling me to divorce him) that I needed to stand by my man and defend his behavior to everyone.

Excuse me?


Mine basically told me this after she cheated on me. I suggested that we go to our mutual friends that knew, and had chosen to remain friends with me while not remaining friends with her, and tell them that we were together and working things out. She said "Well then why don't you go to my friends and apologize?"... .What did I have to apologize for? She couldn't say, really.
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« Reply #19 on: August 17, 2014, 05:54:32 PM »

To not tell anyone about our relationship. What is wrong with her?

I had so much irrational demands from her that I wasn't going to type them all here. But this statement got me. She didn't want me telling anyone we were seeing each other (after the first time she split me black). She never had me meet her friends or anyone who is remotely close to her family. That truly hurt. And I knew she was doing that to keep herself "pure" when she eventually got married to someone else. As she told me once, "if a guy found out I have been with someone else, he won't marry me." She is from that conservative society where if you are not a virgin your value plummets like a rock. A relationship that went on and off for years secretively from her end is something that was painful.
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« Reply #20 on: August 17, 2014, 06:24:44 PM »

You guys just reminded me of something funny.

Shortly into our marriage, I was up watching some tv in the living room adjacent to our bedroom.  I turned it onto a music video channel and they played David Lee Roth's cover of California Girls.  I was a huge DLR/Van Halen fan so naturally I watched the video.

My wife walked out of the bedroom and looked at the tv.  Of course there were women in bikinis  in the video.  She got mad and said, "it figures that you are watching that!"

It's funny, she would get so jealous all of the time if she even thought that I looked at another woman, but she could flirt with every guy she met. Laugh out loud (click to insert in post)
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« Reply #21 on: August 17, 2014, 09:53:28 PM »

You guys just reminded me of something funny.

Shortly into our marriage, I was up watching some tv in the living room adjacent to our bedroom.  I turned it onto a music video channel and they played David Lee Roth's cover of California Girls.  I was a huge DLR/Van Halen fan so naturally I watched the video.

My wife walked out of the bedroom and looked at the tv.  Of course there were women in bikinis  in the video.  She got mad and said, "it figures that you are watching that!"

It's funny, she would get so jealous all of the time if she even thought that I looked at another woman, but she could flirt with every guy she met. Laugh out loud (click to insert in post)

Mine got freaked out mad because I was watching American Idol back when Kelly Pickler was a contestant.  She accused me, in front of the kids, of wanting her.  Like I was actually doing something with this television personality that I will never, ever meet.  The crazy part was that she was doing porn all the time.  I mean hours daily.  If she ran upstairs during the day, it was to masturbate.  I caught her more than once.

I had started attending alanon.  It taught me to deal with her when she would have these fits.  I just started laughing in her face.  That did more to defuse the situation than anything.  That and confronting her with the truth.  I would say, "I am watching a show but I am not hiding in the office looking at porn like you do."
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« Reply #22 on: August 17, 2014, 11:06:24 PM »

Bear with me, context is kind of important with this one... .

In november a few years back she went to an anime convention. I didn't have money and couldn't come. I was so happy she went, she made friends and I was supportive.

She then admitted to have given an HJ to some guy she got to know while there.

A little over a year later, or was it only a few months? I can't tell. The whole thing's a blur.

We were planning on going to one together (with some of her other friends.) She wanted to invite the guy she cheated on me with to that same convention. To stay in the same room as all of us. When I said she was out of her mind she said, and I quote "I love you, but don't you dare get between me and my friends."

I think there's a special place in hell for people who do that. That's twisted.

I was reminiscing about our good times earlier, this topic helped remind me precisely why it's good she's gone. It was all bull___.
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« Reply #23 on: August 18, 2014, 07:13:36 AM »

Bear with me, context is kind of important with this one... .

In november a few years back she went to an anime convention. I didn't have money and couldn't come. I was so happy she went, she made friends and I was supportive.

She then admitted to have given an HJ to some guy she got to know while there.

A little over a year later, or was it only a few months? I can't tell. The whole thing's a blur.

We were planning on going to one together (with some of her other friends.) She wanted to invite the guy she cheated on me with to that same convention. To stay in the same room as all of us. When I said she was out of her mind she said, and I quote "I love you, but don't you dare get between me and my friends."

I think there's a special place in hell for people who do that. That's twisted.

I was reminiscing about our good times earlier, this topic helped remind me precisely why it's good she's gone. It was all bull___.

That is un-frigging-believable!  Look at the crazy-assed stuff that we put up with!
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« Reply #24 on: August 18, 2014, 07:32:07 AM »

Too many to tell, but this is a good one. Demanded that I "stop talking about work because people find my work interesting". I am young and in stockbroking - So one night some of my friends ask about my work and what stocks to buy etc etc. and I casually say what I'm into at the moment. I got way to much attention. She proceeded to say that I "am a nobody and have no talent and know nothing!" and that she has "fvcked every type of engineer there is". Now I never knew that if you screw every type of engineer that you are therefore more classy and clever as a result?
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« Reply #25 on: August 18, 2014, 07:35:23 AM »

Too many to tell, but this is a good one. Demanded that I "stop talking about work because people find my work interesting". I am young and in stockbroking - So one night some of my friends ask about my work and what stocks to buy etc etc. and I casually say what I'm into at the moment. I got way to much attention. She proceeded to say that I "am a nobody and have no talent and know nothing!" and that she has "fvcked every type of engineer there is". Now I never knew that if you screw every type of engineer that you are therefore more classy and clever as a result?

Everyone knows that engineers are the high class type   Smiling (click to insert in post)
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« Reply #26 on: August 18, 2014, 08:45:15 AM »

Too many to tell, but this is a good one. Demanded that I "stop talking about work because people find my work interesting". I am young and in stockbroking - So one night some of my friends ask about my work and what stocks to buy etc etc. and I casually say what I'm into at the moment. I got way to much attention. She proceeded to say that I "am a nobody and have no talent and know nothing!" and that she has "fvcked every type of engineer there is". Now I never knew that if you screw every type of engineer that you are therefore more classy and clever as a result?

You know what engineers use for birth control? Their personality.
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« Reply #27 on: August 18, 2014, 09:05:43 AM »

There were countless things where "the rules" simply didn't apply to her.  She was "special" and therefore didn't have to abide by any of the rules.  Things were more "cut and dry" with her than they were with other people.

So, I really don't know how many I would call "demands" except for the main one, which is that I have this undying obsession with knowing her and her every need and knowing exactly how and when and in what matter to fulfill that need (sexual mostly).  And of course, that terrified me... .a) because I didn't really WANT to know everything she thought and felt and wanted sexually.  Some of the things she revealed were sadistic and totally sick, and b) because it was like a black hole, and I knew that there was only ONE thing for the person designated to fulfill those needs when they failed to... .punishment.  And I had lived that punishment for too long.

Aside from that, she had many expectations that were crazy.  She expected that I should basically let her do whatever she wanted.  Normal rules of mutual respect did not apply to her side of the relationship.  She expected that she should be allowed to have a friendship with the last guy she cheated on me with "since we are only friends in my eyes."  I asked her if any of her friends would tolerate that with their spouses, and she said "No", but when it came to her, she is different.  So, I should let her.  She would have him come over and stay at the house, even with my kids there, while I was away for a weekend trip with friends or work.  She would "accidentally" fall asleep at hotel rooms with him (he lived/lives in his car and drove across the country to live out here and be ith her... .to this day he still follows her around like a stupid puppy dog and gets angry when she has a new boyfriend).

I'm sure I could think of more things, but her control of me came out more through destroying my self-esteem and demanding complete obsession with her and punishing me when I wasn't "enough".  And it worked.
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« Reply #28 on: August 18, 2014, 09:09:47 AM »

She expected that she should be allowed to have a friendship with the last guy she cheated on me with "since we are only friends in my eyes."

Wow, I'm stealing your post. The one I wrote was a bit long, and this takes a perfect snapshot.
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« Reply #29 on: August 18, 2014, 09:21:08 AM »

Yup, I think everyone has allot of stories to tell, with mine, here are a few:

I am the reason she is an alcoholic

I am partly the reason her mom got cancer and died

I am the reason she got fired from her job and now can't find a job

I am the reason that she thinks of herself as a bad mom

I can't act "normal" around any woman, that all i try to do whenever i am near anywoman of any age is get into their pants

That people ( she can't name any )tell her all the time how i act inappropriately and embarass her when she is not around

Oh yeah, and i too got accused of masturbating when i was in the shower on vacation, she stills says; oh i can hear you doing it again (when all i am doing is washing myself) 

That i never loved her or her children and that i only think and care about myself

Just to name a few         
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« Reply #30 on: August 18, 2014, 09:41:47 AM »

This thread has brought forth to my mind all the ridiculous things she said over the years. People use the "literally" wrong, but literally I am in a dizzy remembering everything. haha.

I am a guy, I am a feminist... .by that I mean equal rights for women, and one of my pet peeves about her was how she wants equality when it suits her, and how she wants chivalry when it suits her. She NEVER pays, even though she earns ~$140k. Once she raged at me how I do not get out of the car and open the car door for her or pull out the chair for her. I swear you guys, I am a chivalrous person. I do it subconsciously whenever I can for anyone, men or women. But I never thought of it as a requirement. That I would get yelled at in public if I ever forgot to do it. An infinite demands of hers were crazy or hurtful, but I felt this thing about being provided for or being taken care of was something special. Oh, when we would go to a motel she wouldnt pay a cent either because else she wouldnt "feel like a lady." yup, have sex with me in a motel because you can't leave your parents' home, and that's lady like. paying for it (even once) is unladylike.
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« Reply #31 on: August 18, 2014, 09:48:35 AM »

elessar,

I soo identify with this.  Things that would normally be "nice to haves" were required, expected.  Yet, nothing should be expected of her.  Any expectations of her are considered "controlling" or "smothering."  And the shifting sand... .one minute dominant, one minute taking whatever she wants, next minute victim, next minute expecting to be a little pampered princess... .it's all about them taking whatever they want, when they want it, how they want it.  Like a petulant child.
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« Reply #32 on: August 18, 2014, 10:02:08 AM »

Wow, I think I could write a book about this.  I can't even narrow it down to one story, and thinking about all those stories has me shaking.

"You are not allowed to talk to anyone in my family or it's over"

Then there is the time for 8.5 hours she verbally attacked me for wanting to see my Mom on Mother's Day... . 
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« Reply #33 on: August 18, 2014, 10:13:07 AM »

You guys are actually helping me remember things as I read through the stories:

"You steal my friends.  So, you are not allowed in my social circles any longer."  What really happened:  Some of her friends realized I was a good man who did his best to care for her, yet she walked all over me, lied to me, cheated on me, and enjoyed it.  They saw it, didn't want anything to do with her, and cared about what happened to me.

"I'm changing all my passwords, and you are not allowed near my computer.  You obviously cannot be trusted."  What really happened:  I snooped, got her email password, and found out about her affairs after about 9 months of being tortured... .lied to and used and told he was her "gay friend"... .doing my best to give her the benefit of the doubt and trust her.

There were, of course, the implicit demands.  I was expected to take her side on all arguments and support her hatred toward family members (mine and hers) and former friends of the family who she felt rejected or snubbed by somehow.  All of us in the household were.  Those people were bad people and "never really loved her."  Allegiance was demanded.  If it was even questioned, prepare yourself for being blamed, guilt-tripped, yelled at, and punished and cast out.
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« Reply #34 on: August 18, 2014, 10:14:00 AM »

Haha OutofEgypt... .yeah... .so in our honeymoon phase we went through these kind of unrealistic expectations. She said "all men do it". I felt so confused, I started asking my female friends am I not doing it right? Their unanimous questions were "has she ever been in a relationship?" (no), and "she watches too many movies".

Btw, Thanks OutofEgypt... .while writing that above sentence I finally remembered stuff that happened in our 6 month "good phase". It wasn't so "good" after all. Man... .the number of stuff I have blacked out over the years just keeps growing... .
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« Reply #35 on: August 18, 2014, 10:16:29 AM »

OutofEgypt... .looks like we are on the same wavelength right now. Or maybe blacking out of harmful memories is an evolutionary survival mechanism?
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« Reply #36 on: August 18, 2014, 10:17:48 AM »

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Btw, Thanks OutofEgypt... .while writing that above sentence I finally remembered stuff that happened in our 6 month "good phase". It wasn't so "good" after all. Man... .the number of stuff I have blacked out over the years just keeps growing... .

You are welcome, I think   Haha.  It comes back to me like flashbacks. 

Seriously, one thing the DSM criteria cannot capture is how controlling and demanding of total allegiance and attention these people can be.
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« Reply #37 on: August 18, 2014, 10:18:22 AM »

definitely some kind of unconscious survival mechanism!
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« Reply #38 on: August 18, 2014, 10:34:30 AM »

To not tell anyone about our relationship. What is wrong with her?

I had so much irrational demands from her that I wasn't going to type them all here. But this statement got me. She didn't want me telling anyone we were seeing each other (after the first time she split me black). She never had me meet her friends or anyone who is remotely close to her family. That truly hurt. And I knew she was doing that to keep herself "pure" when she eventually got married to someone else. As she told me once, "if a guy found out I have been with someone else, he won't marry me." She is from that conservative society where if you are not a virgin your value plummets like a rock. A relationship that went on and off for years secretively from her end is something that was painful.

Ugh... .sounds exactly like my ex 
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« Reply #39 on: August 18, 2014, 01:49:53 PM »

there were some really crazy demands along the way but this one stands out as the most ridiculous... .

in the course of a couple of days she had several blow ups sparked by jealousy... .a woman smiled at me on the underground, a woman "looked at me longer than necessary or appropriate" while we were walking in a park, a gay guy eyed me up as we walked into a supermarket.

She was seething and blamed me for " giving off an aura of sexual availability"   Smiling (click to insert in post)

Anyway, after finally erupting, abusing me verbally, screaming, threatening to throw me out of her apartment, talking about available guys who are interested in her etc... she goes on to show me, with a straight face, how to adopt a "London look" that makes eye contact unlikely and therefore "will reduce further incidents of this nature". She demonstrated this by showing me a middle distance, disengaged and disinterested look. She also showed me how to lower me gaze if I was approached by an attractive woman. I was told to be aware of attractive people and immediately look away so as not to be tempted. I stood watching this slack jawed. At one point I asked her if she was joking. It was like stand up comedy. She remained deadpan which made it more ridiculous  Smiling (click to insert in post) She went on to explain that I was "a beautiful man" and I have to be responsible with this because I was now in a real relationship.

I still chuckle when I think of that mad scene.  Smiling (click to insert in post)

There were so many more but this is the standout.

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« Reply #40 on: August 18, 2014, 03:25:47 PM »

Oh, too many to count... .

There was one incident, though, which really helped open my to eyes to that something was seriously wrong. While exBPD and I were together, I was in a car accident. Due to plain luck I got away with a broken arm and being bruised and battered - it was a miracle, really, that I did not get killed. When my exBPD showed up at the hospital to see me, she pulled out pen and paper from her bag, because she wanted my help to make a list of guests to invite for her coming birthday party.

(Hello... .uhmm... .I nearly died a few hours ago, you know? Sorry that your birthday party isn't presently the first thing on my mind... .)
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« Reply #41 on: August 18, 2014, 03:37:16 PM »

You just reminded me of another thing, Sofie

My ex wanted me to be "fixed" so that there was no way that she would ever get pregnant again.  She brought it up for a number of years, insisting how it needed to be done and how it was safer for me to do it than for her.  She brought it up again after she came back from one of her affairs, like now that she's back, let's get back to where we left off and make sure she can't get pregnant.  I gingerly explained some of my reservations, without directly saying, "I don't even know if we will be together in a few years" because I knew it would make her flip out and challenge me and want to split up -that was always her button to push, she was always one-foot-out (except when I finally said "enough!".  She explained how she would take care of me when I was recovering and blah blah blah.  So, I made the decision to go ahead with it, at the time, based on my own reasons, not hers.

Well, I finally had it done.  She let me go ahead with it while having two affairs behind my back (I did not know about at the time... .one with one of my best friends, one with some guy who STILL follows her around to this day).  And did she take care of me while I was laying in bed, recovering for a few days?  I think she brought me a glass of water and tylenol once.  I told her I was hungry and needed something to eat.  Nothing.  I told her again.  Eventually, like an hour or two later, she sent in my daughter with a box of Cheezits.
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« Reply #42 on: August 18, 2014, 05:28:27 PM »

Oh, too many to count... .

There was one incident, though, which really helped open my to eyes to that something was seriously wrong. While exBPD and I were together, I was in a car accident. Due to plain luck I got away with a broken arm and being bruised and battered - it was a miracle, really, that I did not get killed. When my exBPD showed up at the hospital to see me, she pulled out pen and paper from her bag, because she wanted my help to make a list of guests to invite for her coming birthday party.

(Hello... .uhmm... .I nearly died a few hours ago, you know? Sorry that your birthday party isn't presently the first thing on my mind... .)

Dude... .I was in an accident (head on collision with a full size pick up at speed). Luckily I only had some damaged muscles in my arm and contusions here and there... .She shows up to the hospital, and acts like she's doing me a favor being there. Wasn't upset at all. If she had been in an accident I would have been beside myself with worry... .
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« Reply #43 on: August 18, 2014, 06:03:35 PM »

OutOfEgypt,

I can't fathom ever getting "fixed." I get you did it for your own reasons. When you first mentioned how she said she'd take care of you, I've read enough stories to know what foreshadowing looks like.

Mine didn't want kids. But something tells me she's already been knocked up by my replacement. All the more reason I never want to see her or hear from her again. Even the most remote chance of finding out that after aaaallll that, after how I wanted children, she's squeezed out some other ___hole's runts I'll be pissed. Ever seen documentaries on lions and what they do with cubs that ain't theirs? If it was something I could get away with... .well... .fill in the blanks. Probably want to talk to the T about why that's the first place my mind goes.
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« Reply #44 on: August 18, 2014, 06:15:13 PM »

Vatz, you have that anger because they change their mind. What I have learned is that they do not know what they want. If she likes me, she wants what I want. When she has decided she doesn't want me, anything I want or like is exactly what she doesn't want or like. But with the next guy she will want the things she didn't want with me. I would completely understand why her having kids will piss you off. If you want them so badly and she used that as an excuse to leave you, to have kids with someone else... .initially it feels like "why didn't she realize this while she was with me!" but we know thats not how they work. they are defined by others, so they give what the others like. and that brings us back to mirroring and a lack of self...
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« Reply #45 on: August 18, 2014, 08:16:16 PM »

elessar,

It would be a horrible low-blow. It helps a little to keep in mind that it's not personal. It's the disorder at work, and most likely has nothing to do with my value. It's got nothing to do with me. That's just something I have to keep telling myself. Most days I still have a hard time doing it. Even with work I feel like that negative self-assessment will probably stay with me so long as I'm alive. But, maybe the fact that they're disordered can help me at least accept the possibility it isn't me. I don't know why but I'm not there yet, and it's sort of frustrating for a number of reasons.

Anyway, thanks. You helped remind me that it's all the disorder, that these weren't the actions of a normal and sane person. I can start there at least.

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« Reply #46 on: August 19, 2014, 02:27:01 AM »

I am partly the reason her mom got cancer and died

Oh my, I forgot about this one. He accused me of killing his father (the man died of stomach cancer), He also accused me of cheating on him when I bought a vibrator.

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« Reply #47 on: August 19, 2014, 02:45:44 AM »

Had an incident downtown on my way to pick her up: Gun put to my face and muggers took my phone. Got to her work in shock. She proceeded to scream and yell at me (Having just had a real gun to my head) - Next day when my brother phones her (since I don't have a phone) to find out if I'm OK she tells me I am attention seeking and how is SHE supposed to feel? Proceeded to demand that I apologise to her since the fact that I had a gun to my head reflected badly on her.
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« Reply #48 on: August 20, 2014, 02:03:20 AM »

Pieter2, that just creeped me out; it showed how sick she is as a human being.
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« Reply #49 on: August 20, 2014, 08:16:33 AM »

I go in major trouble one time when my uBPDw saw an old picture frame that came out of an old box in storage.  It had nine little wallet sized photos in it. One was of my previous girlfriend (the ONLY previous girlfriend). At this point we had been together for more than 10 years.  She was so pissed and thought it was a reasonable expectation for me to have decided one day to go through every box of old photographs and throw out old photos of that woman.  Like I am supposed to delete that chapter of my life?  Like I am supposed to say one day, "Hey I think I'll go through a couple thousand pictures and purge ones that have my exgf in them, I don't need any of those college memories" 

I had totally forgotten about that one!

Another time, my parents were giving us a loan to buy a piece of property to build our dream home on and she says we can take the money but my parents are NEVER allowed to step foot on the property or have ANY knowledge or opinion about ANYTHING related to the house, or it would be ruined for her.

The phone message:  "If you don't call me back right now, we are getting a divorce"
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« Reply #50 on: August 20, 2014, 09:32:17 AM »

Reading through this thread has brought back so many memories!  I have too many stories to count in my 40-year marriage, but I will just tell the most recent ridiculous one. 

We split 16 months ago.  We have 5 children, all adults, but our youngest daughter is high-functioning autistic.  We also have a son who has been in rehab for his addictions.  So, we have chosen to maintain limited contact, as now and then there are issues that come up with these kids.  We go through these cycles of being able to communicate a bit, but they always deteriorate to him threatening me or the kids with various things (he threatens things against our children as a way to hurt me).  I have blocked his phone on a couple of occasions where the texts start to be relentless rants and threats.  Then a month or so later I will unblock it (I know, I know... .probably should just stay NC for good). 

So, anyway I was at work yesterday when he started in on a barrage of threatening texts, and I blocked his phone number to get some peace.  About an hour later, I got this email:

":)o not ever unblock me again.  You have lost the previlage (his spelling) of texting me forever."   
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« Reply #51 on: August 20, 2014, 02:09:17 PM »

Don't beat yourself up for having contact with him.  You have children together.  I hope you can maintain NC; however, it was not unreasonable of you to try to work with him. 

His response was ridiculous and typical of his condition.
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« Reply #52 on: August 20, 2014, 05:37:24 PM »

Had an incident downtown on my way to pick her up: Gun put to my face and muggers took my phone. Got to her work in shock. She proceeded to scream and yell at me (Having just had a real gun to my head) - Next day when my brother phones her (since I don't have a phone) to find out if I'm OK she tells me I am attention seeking and how is SHE supposed to feel? Proceeded to demand that I apologise to her since the fact that I had a gun to my head reflected badly on her.

Being threatened with a gun is a hugely traumatic experience.

I had a buddy that was robbed at gunpoint in college.  He had nightmares about it for years afterwards.  You have my sympathies.
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« Reply #53 on: August 20, 2014, 10:02:00 PM »

Pieter2 you have my sympathies. That must of been a terrifying experience. I'm sorry she invalidated you and put her needs above yours. You experienced a very traumatic event and she's being waifish. It's not fair to you. I hope you're feeling better. Are you OK?


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« Reply #54 on: August 21, 2014, 01:45:47 AM »

Her most irrational demand:  "I need to have total honesty, total commitment, and total trust."

Why was it her most irrational demand?  Those are things that are built in relationship by both partners engaging in those actions, a two-way street.  She is completely unwilling to give those things in return.
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« Reply #55 on: August 21, 2014, 02:20:18 AM »

Pieter2 you have my sympathies. That must of been a terrifying experience. I'm sorry she invalidated you and put her needs above yours. You experienced a very traumatic event and she's being waifish. It's not fair to you. I hope you're feeling better. Are you OK?

Hi Mutt

Thanks. Yes, I'm perfectly fine having left her 4 months ago now. It happened just before I ended it. I live in South Africa and it's quite common here to get robbed unfortunately. Happened really quick. Still shaken up about ever driving there again, but since I'm not with her I won't have to  Smiling (click to insert in post) It was actually her that traumatised me. She told me immediately after (whilst I could barely talk from shock) that I'm stupid and shouted : "Why do you talk on my phone  when you're in the dangerous part of the city!" (She phoned me and always got upset if I didn't answer - That's actually why) Sad, so sad. When my family heard about that they all told me to leave. Was a real wake up call with regards to lack of empathy. 
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« Reply #56 on: August 21, 2014, 03:07:30 AM »

There were so many, that they've become like wallpaper in my memory... .one that immediately comes to mind is when I was incapacitated from an accident. I blew out my knee, and was awaiting reconstructive surgery once the swelling went down. I was incapable of doing much of anything, including driving the kids to school, getting up/down stairs.

My xBPDgf then announces that she is going to visit her ex-spouse for two days in Chicago (we live on the East Coast) and would be back in time for my surgery. Claimed her ex (who was of ailing health) was going to die imminently, and she had to go (btw, her ex is still alive and kicking to this day). I was dumbfounded... .yet, still hung in there for another 8 months.
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