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dobie
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Does she miss me ?
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May 03, 2015, 07:32:00 AM »
The evidence says no :'(
Not had contact apart from a xmass text
Ignore most of my emails claimed she never got them
Responded to one with
"I'm sorry I hurt you nothing I can say will make u feel better
Your a great guy with lots to offer and you will meet a girl who loves you and makes you happy we were just not meant to be and deep down you know that "
Tried to take up her early offer of friendship in the BU last month
Got told "we can't meet its too soon for both of us sorry "
Told my bro she wants me to be happy , wishes me all the best and the reason she can't see me is she is a coward she should have left years ago
Does she really not love or miss me at all :'(
Do I mean nothing am I extinguished completely :'(
Feel so low so blue she was everything to me .
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May 03, 2015, 07:42:47 AM »
Dobie,
I'm sure your ex misses you. I could tell how she felt from the earlier posts, but since she's trying to move, she cannot have contact.
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I don't know. While she has new supply she will be utterly consumed by that. When devaluation comes you may enter her consciousness again as she re-evaluates what her 'perfect relationship' should look like. The more he disappoints her, the better you will look by comparison. That's why so many get re-cycled. Better than nothing for many pwBPD.
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Quote from: FannyB on May 03, 2015, 08:59:17 AM
I don't know. While she has new supply she will be utterly consumed by that. When devaluation comes you may enter her consciousness again as she re-evaluates what her 'perfect relationship' should look like. The more he disappoints her, the better you will look by comparison. That's why so many get re-cycled. Better than nothing for many pwBPD.
She swears she has no bf she told my bro last month it would be hard to find someone like me to match her on the intellectual level .
I caught her on dating sites in Jan so I'm sure she is seeing people just no one serious
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Quote from: newtothis28 on May 03, 2015, 07:42:47 AM
Dobie,
I'm sure your ex misses you. I could tell how she felt from the earlier posts, but since she's trying to move, she cannot have contact.
Why is she doing this it makes no sense if she misses me :'(
I keep hearing her I've not loved you for a year speech I should have left you a year ago blah blah
Her if I saw you I would come back for a few more years I guess was guilt
She accused me of being able to manipulate her and be very convincing I guess that's what she calls reason and trying to work things out "manipulation"
She said the same to my bro he said that's the point you try and work things out she looked perplexed ?
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Quote from: dobie on May 03, 2015, 09:57:52 AM
Quote from: newtothis28 on May 03, 2015, 07:42:47 AM
Dobie,
I'm sure your ex misses you. I could tell how she felt from the earlier posts, but since she's trying to move, she cannot have contact.
Why is she doing this it makes no sense if she misses me :'(
I keep hearing her I've not loved you for a year speech I should have left you a year ago blah blah
Her if I saw you I would come back for a few more years I guess was guilt
She accused me of being able to manipulate her and be very convincing I guess that's what she calls reason and trying to work things out "manipulation"
She said the same to my bro he said that's the point you try and work things out she looked perplexed ?
Sometimes, I miss my ex, but I still won't contact him. It's just to help you move forward from the breakup. The I've should have left you a year ago comment was probably said out of anger and she didn't mean it.
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May 03, 2015, 11:37:54 AM »
I understand how you feel here, and it definitely has it's own sadness. It's not uncommon or unhealthy, though, so don't think that you're any worse off than anyone else might be.
I think the question that you need to ask yourself is why do you need to know that she misses you? Would it make any difference?
Anytime a relationship ends both parties will miss each other to a certain extent. This holds true for people with BPD too. You spent a large amount of time with her. It would be impossible for her to erase that fact. If she is not contacting you it is probably for the best, considering your emotional state. You might want to take this, ironically enough, as her way of expressing the love that she has for you. You need to heal. Not communicating for a period of time is, in my experience, the best way to do this.
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Quote from: valet on May 03, 2015, 11:37:54 AM
I understand how you feel here, and it definitely has it's own sadness. It's not uncommon or unhealthy, though, so don't think that you're any worse off than anyone else might be.
I think the question that you need to ask yourself is why do you need to know that she misses you? Would it make any difference?
Anytime a relationship ends both parties will miss each other to a certain extent. This holds true for people with BPD too. You spent a large amount of time with her. It would be impossible for her to erase that fact. If she is not contacting you it is probably for the best, considering your emotional state. You might want to take this, ironically enough, as her way of expressing the love that she has for you. You need to heal. Not communicating for a period of time is, in my experience, the best way to do this.
I think knowing your ex misses you shows how he or she regrets the choices they make in the relationship.
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Showing she misses me or cares would imply she has human feelings i meant something i spent nearly seven years with her we went through everything together i was her rock her goto guy her bf !
i exist i feel i hurt :'(
she met my bro last month to return some stuff she said the same cold thing i should have left him a year ago i was hoping things would get better i should not have carried on taking him to wedding venues (she was the one pushing for the wedding) getting distraught when we were late for a viewing !
Arghhh she has blown my mind with her hot/cold behaviours
so much contradiction over the last year
my bro last month : why didn't you speak to him or reach out
her : if i did i know he would have got me to stay for a few more years
my bro : that's the point to work things out fix things
her : silence and confused look
her i know i might never met someone as smart as him to match me again
my bro : why did u break up
her : arguing and resentment over money
my bro : that's it ? You threw it all away for that ?
her : we are just not right for each other
my bro : no your not right for him and you wont find someone as caring , loving loyal , dedicated , honest , warm , funny
her : silence
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I feel it would not be productive to tell you that I'm sure that she misses you and regrets her decisions. That is not the pattern of what someone with BPD does. They paint us black, punish (this varies in severity in each individual relationship), trash our name to everyone to appear as the victim and then move on. As FannyB wrote above that if she is hard up again for companionship you may get a call. It's only though because you "will do" for the time being. Sometimes a reality check is the first step on the road to healing even though it is painful. Dobie she is mentally sick.
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Quote from: AwakenedOne on May 03, 2015, 01:16:40 PM
I feel it would not be productive to tell you that I'm sure that she misses you and regrets her decisions. That is not the pattern of what someone with BPD does. They paint us black, punish (this varies in severity in each individual relationship), trash our name to everyone to appear as the victim and then move on. As FannyB wrote above that if she is hard up again for companionship you may get a call. It's only though because you "will do" for the time being. Sometimes a reality check is the first step on the road to healing even though it is painful. Dobie she is mentally sick.
that's the problem i don't know if she is BPD or just immature , depressed , anxious , and selfish
she was always those things she is a user no doubt she is a pro victim but is she mental ? I don't know .
her narrative is we just drifted apart she grew up
and im a nasty man who used her for her money BS !
and i said horrible things im such a meanie she put up with so much. And she is the victim that's what she is telling people i imagine .
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Quote from: dobie on May 03, 2015, 01:31:51 PM
that's the problem i don't know if she is BPD or just immature , depressed , anxious , and selfish
she was always those things she is a user no doubt she is a pro victim but is she mental ? I don't know .
BPD or not, do you really want to be with a person that is 'immature, depressed, anxious, and selfish'?
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Quote from: valet on May 03, 2015, 01:37:34 PM
Quote from: dobie on May 03, 2015, 01:31:51 PM
that's the problem i don't know if she is BPD or just immature , depressed , anxious , and selfish
she was always those things she is a user no doubt she is a pro victim but is she mental ? I don't know .
BPD or not, do you really want to be with a person that is 'immature, depressed, anxious, and selfish'?
No but she was not always a totally selfish person i saw her kindness her empathy for my father i saw her light less over the last few years but its there she is not Charles Manson
there is beauty and goodness in her but its pushed down .
she is complex this last year or so and the BU just brought out the worst side in her to full force
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Hi Dobie,
I'm new to the site, on the "undecided" board for now... .my H and I are seperated for the past 2.5 weeks... .I posted something on that board about "do they actually ccarry out their threats"... .when u get the chance, you will know why I came looking for answers... .so many questions! I can totally relate to how you're feeling! I ask myself if my marriage was a lie, was my love and loyalty taken for granted. He has sent messages that he is "sorry". I ask myself if he feels one shred of regret that he is not doing anything to help himself. I also feel like I don't exist... .ask myself, does he even realise what this condition has caused? Does he not care to atleast try? Sadly, I feel just about worthless now. Like my love meant nothing! Deep down I know he is hurting-he mentioned that many times... .but does he actually KNOW why? At this point, I don't think he knows. So I don't think, in your case, that she is full aware of how much hurting! Just know, you're not alone in your question.
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Quote from: AwakenedOne on May 03, 2015, 01:16:40 PM
I feel it would not be productive to tell you that I'm sure that she misses you and regrets her decisions. That is not the pattern of what someone with BPD does. They paint us black, punish (this varies in severity in each individual relationship), trash our name to everyone to appear as the victim and then move on. As FannyB wrote above that if she is hard up again for companionship you may get a call. It's only though because you "will do" for the time being. Sometimes a reality check is the first step on the road to healing even though it is painful. Dobie she is mentally sick.
Considering this is what I posted, I feel absolutely required to respond. First, you don't know what or how she feels. There are several possible emotions a person can feel and posting an opinion about one of those emotions is not counterproductive. Second, I did not say that she actually regretted her decisions, which is a possibility, mentally ill or not. I said when an ex misses you, it can possibly mean that they regret some of the decisions that they have made. Third, a person with BPD doesn't always trash you. While that may be an experience for some, don't speak for everyone and say that your "reality" is the reality. I would love nothing more than for Dobie to heal and move forward, but he can analyze and ask questions. That is a part of the healing process.
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Dobie
You're obviously having a tough time getting your head around the magnitude of what she did to you and what she feels about you now. As such you're asking 'nons' to second guess what a pwBPD is thinking. It might be worth taking a look on psychforums or some other message board where pwBPD write about how they are feeling. You might find some answers there that might help you move on.
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Quote from: dobie on May 03, 2015, 07:32:00 AM
The evidence says no :'(
Not had contact apart from a xmass text
Ignore most of my emails claimed she never got them
Responded to one with
"I'm sorry I hurt you nothing I can say will make u feel better
Your a great guy with lots to offer and you will meet a girl who loves you and makes you happy we were just not meant to be and deep down you know that "
Tried to take up her early offer of friendship in the BU last month
Got told "we can't meet its too soon for both of us sorry "
Told my bro she wants me to be happy , wishes me all the best and the reason she can't see me is she is a coward she should have left years ago
Does she really not love or miss me at all :'(
Do I mean nothing am I extinguished completely :'(
Feel so low so blue she was everything to me .
Hi Dobie,
I'm really sorry that you're having such a tough time.
She may well miss you. It's very possible to miss someone while recognising that you no longer want to be with them.
I think the other stuff about wishing she'd left you a year ago is hurtful and childish and I would try and ignore it. You're not responsible for her choices, but from what you've written she seems to have given you a fairly clear indication that she wants to move on and she wants you to do the same.
It's clear that you really care about her and I know you feel very sad and you feel hurt by this, but you have no control over her behaviour or her choices.
Imagine if your positions were reversed and you ended the relationship. You told her that you wanted to move on and you wanted her to do same. How would you feel if she wouldn't accept it?
Do you think you should accept what she's telling you?
Many of us have chosen to go NC because we felt it was the best way to heal and move forward. Perhaps when you've detached friendship might be possible, right it might be very painful for both of you.
What do you think?
Reforming
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Quote from: dobie on May 03, 2015, 01:41:43 PM
she is complex this last year or so and the BU just brought out the worst side in her to full force
No, Dobie, there is no "worst side" - the behaviors you have seen are actually who she is. The totality of who she is includes the good and bad rolled up into one person; just like it does for the rest of us. Her intellect, humor, love, coldness, detached-ness, push, pull, idealize, devalue - it's ALL her, it's who she is. She's not going to return to a "best side"; you have now seen all of her, both good and bad.
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Quote from: Reforming on May 03, 2015, 03:38:38 PM
Quote from: dobie on May 03, 2015, 07:32:00 AM
The evidence says no :'(
Not had contact apart from a xmass text
Ignore most of my emails claimed she never got them
Responded to one with
"I'm sorry I hurt you nothing I can say will make u feel better
Your a great guy with lots to offer and you will meet a girl who loves you and makes you happy we were just not meant to be and deep down you know that "
Tried to take up her early offer of friendship in the BU last month
Got told "we can't meet its too soon for both of us sorry "
Told my bro she wants me to be happy , wishes me all the best and the reason she can't see me is she is a coward she should have left years ago
Does she really not love or miss me at all :'(
Do I mean nothing am I extinguished completely :'(
Feel so low so blue she was everything to me .
Hi Dobie,
I'm really sorry that you're having such a tough time.
She may well miss you. It's very possible to miss someone while recognising that you no longer want to be with them.
I think the other stuff about wishing she'd left you a year ago is hurtful and childish and I would try and ignore it. You're not responsible for her choices, but from what you've written she seems to have given you a fairly clear indication that she wants to move on and she wants you to do the same.
It's clear that you really care about her and I know you feel very sad and you feel hurt by this, but you have no control over her behaviour or her choices.
Imagine if your positions were reversed and you ended the relationship. You told her that you wanted to move on and you wanted her to do same. How would you feel if she wouldn't accept it?
Do you think you should accept what she's telling you?
Many of us have chosen to go NC because we felt it was the best way to heal and move forward. Perhaps when you've detached friendship might be possible, right it might be very painful for both of you.
What do you think?
Reforming
Reforming ,
Thanks even you saying that which is the truth and I appreciate it she does not want me in her life hurts like a spear to my heart .
I have left her alone the only time I tried to make contact you guys know about
Yes I'm hurting I'm confused I'm reeling like I said I've been dumped before I understood it , it made sense I went full nc even when she was trying to see me contact me etc and I was only a pup of 21 my first love
This though well its something else I don't think I loved this girl more than my first love in fact I probably loved my first love more but this BU the deciet the cold brutal way she did it her actions etc etc I'm just well shocked traumatised whatever
I put everything into this blood , sweat , tears , I did everything I could I think that's why it sucks so bad .
Lots of possible cheating flags are coming up as well now when I think back but I was so so secure with this woman I never thought this could or would happen
She will only contact me if and when she needs something so I doubt we will be friends
I have so many ifs and buts so many things I want to say but she had walled up because as she admitted to my bro she is "scared" I.e ashamed to see me
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Quote from: jhkbuzz on May 03, 2015, 05:08:59 PM
Quote from: dobie on May 03, 2015, 01:41:43 PM
she is complex this last year or so and the BU just brought out the worst side in her to full force
No, Dobie, there is no "worst side" - the behaviors you have seen are actually who she is. The totality of who she is includes the good and bad rolled up into one person; just like it does for the rest of us. Her intellect, humor, love, coldness, detached-ness, push, pull, idealize, devalue - it's ALL her, it's who she is. She's not going to return to a "best side"; you have now seen all of her, both good and bad.
This is what for some reason I don't want to see its so painful to think she is all those things jk its like I want it to be an abberation its like for some reason my psyche does not want to look at " Medusa's " face it wants to believe she is really a good kind person with empathy and compassion when she is clearly not or it is limited
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Quote from: FannyB on May 03, 2015, 03:28:06 PM
Dobie
You're obviously having a tough time getting your head around the magnitude of what she did to you and what she feels about you now. As such you're asking 'nons' to second guess what a pwBPD is thinking. It might be worth taking a look on psychforums or some other message board where pwBPD write about how they are feeling. You might find some answers there that might help you move on.
FannyByGaslighting
Yes and I know its not all about her per say its more complicated than that its about me as much as her its about my wounds my low self esteem etc
Thanks man will go check out some BPD forums
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Quote from: Chrisbazsky77 on May 03, 2015, 02:09:36 PM
Hi Dobie,
I'm new to the site, on the "undecided" board for now... .my H and I are seperated for the past 2.5 weeks... .I posted something on that board about "do they actually ccarry out their threats"... .when u get the chance, you will know why I came looking for answers... .so many questions! I can totally relate to how you're feeling! I ask myself if my marriage was a lie, was my love and loyalty taken for granted. He has sent messages that he is "sorry". I ask myself if he feels one shred of regret that he is not doing anything to help himself. I also feel like I don't exist... .ask myself, does he even realise what this condition has caused? Does he not care to atleast try? Sadly, I feel just about worthless now. Like my love meant nothing! Deep down I know he is hurting-he mentioned that many times... .but does he actually KNOW why? At this point, I don't think he knows. So I don't think, in your case, that she is full aware of how much hurting! Just know, you're not alone in your question.
Thanks Chris I'm sorry you are going through this as well I wish I could say something about what he thinks or feels but I'm stumped when it comes to my own x
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Funny I rememberd today a conversation when she was discussing getting her stuff when I reminded her she told me she had not loved me for a year and she accused me of making it up she said I was delusional or something to that affect (gas lighting)
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Quote from: dobie on May 03, 2015, 05:34:54 PM
Quote from: Reforming on May 03, 2015, 03:38:38 PM
Quote from: dobie on May 03, 2015, 07:32:00 AM
The evidence says no :'(
Not had contact apart from a xmass text
Ignore most of my emails claimed she never got them
Responded to one with
"I'm sorry I hurt you nothing I can say will make u feel better
Your a great guy with lots to offer and you will meet a girl who loves you and makes you happy we were just not meant to be and deep down you know that "
Tried to take up her early offer of friendship in the BU last month
Got told "we can't meet its too soon for both of us sorry "
Told my bro she wants me to be happy , wishes me all the best and the reason she can't see me is she is a coward she should have left years ago
Does she really not love or miss me at all :'(
Do I mean nothing am I extinguished completely :'(
Feel so low so blue she was everything to me .
Hi Dobie,
I'm really sorry that you're having such a tough time.
She may well miss you. It's very possible to miss someone while recognising that you no longer want to be with them.
I think the other stuff about wishing she'd left you a year ago is hurtful and childish and I would try and ignore it. You're not responsible for her choices, but from what you've written she seems to have given you a fairly clear indication that she wants to move on and she wants you to do the same.
It's clear that you really care about her and I know you feel very sad and you feel hurt by this, but you have no control over her behaviour or her choices.
Imagine if your positions were reversed and you ended the relationship. You told her that you wanted to move on and you wanted her to do same. How would you feel if she wouldn't accept it?
Do you think you should accept what she's telling you?
Many of us have chosen to go NC because we felt it was the best way to heal and move forward. Perhaps when you've detached friendship might be possible, right it might be very painful for both of you.
What do you think?
Reforming
Reforming ,
Thanks even you saying that which is the truth and I appreciate it she does not want me in her life hurts like a spear to my heart .
I have left her alone the only time I tried to make contact you guys know about
Yes I'm hurting I'm confused I'm reeling like I said I've been dumped before I understood it , it made sense I went full nc even when she was trying to see me contact me etc and I was only a pup of 21 my first love
This though well its something else I don't think I loved this girl more than my first love in fact I probably loved my first love more but this BU the deciet the cold brutal way she did it her actions etc etc I'm just well shocked traumatised whatever
I put everything into this blood , sweat , tears , I did everything I could I think that's why it sucks so bad .
Lots of possible cheating flags are coming up as well now when I think back but I was so so secure with this woman I never thought this could or would happen
She will only contact me if and when she needs something so I doubt we will be friends
I have so many ifs and buts so many things I want to say but she had walled up because as she admitted to my bro she is "scared" I.e ashamed to see me
Hi Dobie,
"This though well its something else I don't think I loved this girl more than my first love in fact I probably loved my first love more but this BU the deciet the cold brutal way she did it her actions etc etc I'm just well shocked traumatised whatever
I put everything into this blood , sweat , tears , I did everything I could I think that's why it sucks so bad ."
I think this goes to the heart of what makes these relationships and BU's so difficult. The realisation that the relationship was unbalanced - that we gave too much at the cost of looking after ourselves.
Working out why I did that really helped me to move forward.
We're all here for you
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You need to move on buddy. I could not let go either... .but she is not with you and not planning to be. Nothing they do makes any sense. She has a personality disorder. There is no normal. Not trying to hurt you... .it's a painful process of grieving the loss... .not easy stuff.
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Quote from: Infared on May 04, 2015, 05:52:32 AM
You need to move on buddy. I could not let go either... .but she is not with you and not planning to be. Nothing they do makes any sense. She has a personality disorder. There is no normal. Not trying to hurt you... .it's a painful process of grieving the loss... .not easy stuff.
Thanks infrared I need to repeats that as my mantra
SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER , SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER
SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER !
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Reforming :
I guess I wanted that infatuation back I wanted that your the most perfect , amazing i didnt want her to leave i was terrified she would leave deep down . I need to stop loving her and start loving me the trouble is I don't know how :'(
I thought I could make her happy if I did that or that if we got this or that she would be happy but she wasn't . I retreated I think in the last few years into myself my energy levels were burnt out . I was and am exhausted mentally and emotionally I took very little interest in most things apart from what I thought I had to do to make her happy and keep her with me . I lost myself .
She is not even totally happy now I'm gone .
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Quote from: dobie on May 04, 2015, 06:11:32 AM
Quote from: Infared on May 04, 2015, 05:52:32 AM
You need to move on buddy. I could not let go either... .but she is not with you and not planning to be. Nothing they do makes any sense. She has a personality disorder. There is no normal. Not trying to hurt you... .it's a painful process of grieving the loss... .not easy stuff.
Thanks infrared I need to repeats that as my mantra
SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER , SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER
SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER !
Yes... .we keep wanting and hoping for something normal from a very damaged person. The idealization phase (mine was almost 5 years long), was a childish fantasy for them. Infatuation. Nothing adult, deep or real. Just a fantasy to fill their needs. It was not healthy adult love. ... .but we keep hoping it was because it was so wonderful for us.
Very hard to get over when their "little bubble" for us pops! It hurts like hell buddy... .but we have to see our needy part in it... .heal and move forward... .Baby steps is ok... .and healthy... .but move forward we must.
You have to focus on YOU... .not her. That is the past.
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Quote from: Infared on May 04, 2015, 06:19:20 AM
Quote from: dobie on May 04, 2015, 06:11:32 AM
Quote from: Infared on May 04, 2015, 05:52:32 AM
You need to move on buddy. I could not let go either... .but she is not with you and not planning to be. Nothing they do makes any sense. She has a personality disorder. There is no normal. Not trying to hurt you... .it's a painful process of grieving the loss... .not easy stuff.
Thanks infrared I need to repeats that as my mantra
SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER , SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER
SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER !
Yes... .we keep wanting and hoping for something normal from a very damaged person. The idealization phase (mine was almost 5 years long), was a childish fantasy for them. Infatuation. Nothing adult, deep or real. Just a fantasy to fill their needs. It was not healthy adult love. ... .but we keep hoping it was because it was so wonderful for us.
Very hard to get over when their "little bubble" for us pops! It hurts like hell buddy... .but we have to see our needy part in it... .heal and move forward... .Baby steps is ok... .and healthy... .but move forward we must.
That's the rub the infatuation fills what's missing in us its a balm and it feels so strong we can't image our xBPD s/o would ever leave or hurt us it just seems unthinkable and when it starts to wane we don't realise its not coming back it might start and stutter but the trust they had is gone the dream of us is gone and when morning comes they can't move forward to face the dawn so they leave .
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Quote from: dobie on May 04, 2015, 06:23:22 AM
Quote from: Infared on May 04, 2015, 06:19:20 AM
Quote from: dobie on May 04, 2015, 06:11:32 AM
Quote from: Infared on May 04, 2015, 05:52:32 AM
You need to move on buddy. I could not let go either... .but she is not with you and not planning to be. Nothing they do makes any sense. She has a personality disorder. There is no normal. Not trying to hurt you... .it's a painful process of grieving the loss... .not easy stuff.
Thanks infrared I need to repeats that as my mantra
SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER , SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER
SHE HAS A PERSONALITY DISORDER !
Yes... .we keep wanting and hoping for something normal from a very damaged person. The idealization phase (mine was almost 5 years long), was a childish fantasy for them. Infatuation. Nothing adult, deep or real. Just a fantasy to fill their needs. It was not healthy adult love. ... .but we keep hoping it was because it was so wonderful for us.
Very hard to get over when their "little bubble" for us pops! It hurts like hell buddy... .but we have to see our needy part in it... .heal and move forward... .Baby steps is ok... .and healthy... .but move forward we must.
That's the rub the infatuation fills what's missing in us its a balm and it feels so strong we can't image our xBPD s/o would ever leave or hurt us it just seems unthinkable and when it starts to wane we don't realise its not coming back it might start and stutter but the trust they had is gone the dream of us is gone and when morning comes they can't move forward to face the dawn so they leave .
Hey... .in my case she went out behind my back and got into full-on "new hero" relationship and used that to devalue me. (denying that there was another).
Really sic stuff. She could not be alone for a minute. The discarding of our relationship was extremely abrupt, and 2 weeks before Christmas.
Only a really sick person does stuff like that. Normal adults do not.
... .but... .it still is very, very painful to the non... .and it takes a lot of time to accept the actual truth... .mourn the loss and love you. It takes time and work. I could not do it alone... .I needed a T, a support group and a lot of hard work to grow... . it is not for the weak.
I have to add... .that having any contact with that person... .ANY... .even through other people... .was poison for me. There was no explaining the behavior in a rational way and I kept looking for that and it just it not possible.
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