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« on: May 19, 2015, 03:01:23 PM »

I dreamed I was hanging out with my UxBPDbf.  We had my dog and were going to leave her with this restaurant owner that my ex knew.  While at this location, he and I were on the deck outside and he started kissing me.  I felt hesitant but kissed him back.  He said something like he needed to always kiss me and tease me as that was the way to keep me nearby.

Next scene:  I decided that I should leave the restaurant owner my contact info in case there was a problem with my dog.  I was having trouble writing down my numbers but did so rather sloppily.  Then I went to write down my ex's contact info and I could NOT REMEMBER HIS NAME!  I knew what it started with but could not remember despite saying out loud (in my dream) a few others that started with the same letter.  I never did figure it out.

End of dream.

How weird is that?  I could NOT remember the name of the person I have thought about practically non-stop since we met.  

WEIRDEST PART:  I sort of half woke up (or maybe less than half) and I still couldn't remember his name.  Imagine that, I was partially awake and could not remember his name.  It took me a minute of really trying once I wasn't totally asleep before I figured it out.

I am not sure what to make of this but it feels VERY hopeful to me.  Like I really will be able to forget about him at some point!  I CAN'T WAIT!

I also had wondered on several occasions, in waking life, if he was intentionally using sex with me as a way to get his desired outcome.  Seems like my dream confirms that YES, he did so.  

I have really informative dreams throughout my NC so am glad to add another one to the list.  What do you make of this?  What dreams have you had?  
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