I miss her or the fantasy... .probably more the fantasy. It's been, I don't know anymore, 6 weeks? The

keep popping up. Even new ones where I say to myself "ohhhhhhh".
I remember the rings. The first few times we Skyped, she was wearing a big, huge diamond ring. That was odd, why would you wear your wedding ring if you hated your husband and were moving forward with separation/divorce? Especially in front of me?
When I said something about it like "that's a mighty nice ring you have on", she acted surprised. I think "acted" is the key word. Then that ring was magically replaced by a ring I had bought her when we were together as youngsters. Except it wasn't my ring.
I thought it was my mistake but I know now that the ring she claimed to be from me wasn't the ring I bought her. I never said anything.
That should have been it but noo, I kept going.
Boy, what a mess. We were together for only 3 months but as many of you know, she was one of my first loves when we were in our 20s. Probably my most intense love ever. It's unbelievable that 3 months can affect me like this.