Today it hurts like hell

[Depression = 72% of members]

21 days NC. On Thursday a colleague who actually is his friend and he even admitted to me he used her to check on me in the past (she lives very near) phoned twice and tested She is blocked so I did not see it. I saw it Yesterday checking blocked calls.

Today I checked again and no calls. It hurts like hell. Why. Why.

I feel I am back to square one. All this unbearable pain.

[UnforgivenII]

21 days NC. On Thursday a colleague who actually is his friend and he even admitted to me he used her to check on me in the past (she lives very near) phoned twice and tested She is blocked so I did not see it. I saw it Yesterday checking blocked calls.

Today I checked again and no calls. It hurts like hell. Why. Why.

I feel I am back to square one. All this unbearable pain.

[Mutt]

Hi UnforgivenII,

In the beginning NC is hard although it gets better with more time behind you. I know that its probably not what you want to here rich now that things do get better. I can understand how the irregular contact attempts would be painful. Hang in there.

[Moselle]

Unforgiven,

So sorry to hear that you are going through so much pain.

Are you going to a therapist? That was one thing that can help tremendously.

Secondly, emotions often become blocked and we don't know (or never learned) how to process them, There's a book called "Focussing" by Anne Weiser Cornell, which I use frequently to help me process difficult emotions like pain. Perhaps it something for you?

Hang in there, NC is tough