Hello there!
I am finding that for me b/c it runs in the family it's familiar and feels comfortable. Which means for me, I just need to be aware of this attraction that I have and visa versa and do things differently. Kind of like going against the grain. The good news is I am forming healthier r/s with people in recovery.
Keep on reading about the disorder. Learning about the disorder is the beginning of awareness and with that new information you can make more informed decisions. We don't know what we don't know.
Keep posting and talking about here. This is a safe place to do that.
Ts